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Hello again. what a surprise.
Have you come here to stay?
You're looking strong, much
taller than I remember.

Yes take my seat
I'll make a cup of tea.
Dredge up some memories
Things for us to share.

It feels strange to see your face
I'm not sure how I feel. What
is to happen now? Perhaps you
should have called. Warned me.

I didn't think you'd visit me
Not after the things I said.
And all those times I ignored you.
Back when I drove you away.

Yes, I have been well.
I have done most of the things
I told you I would. And No.
I have not been alone.

Yes, I laughed again. Many
days came when I did not cry.
I did not think of you and it
seemed that life had changed.

My friends were proud of me.
They said I had been brave.
Fought hard, in the circumstances,
That better times would come.

See how the wounds healed? My
body's done quite well. Was it you that
gave me those matches? I loved them once.
I'm glad that scar remains. It reminds.

Yes I am a little curvy. I eat better
these days. I can take it in more freely. And
keep it down. Some days it's hard. But it's the
best war I've won. I'd like to put it on my C.V.

Do I blame you? I'm not sure.
Can I? It would be an easy option
Of course. No. I don't think I do.
You did what I told you to.

Please, no, don't hug me. You're
alright where you are. Best to
keep some distance. Perhaps I
shouldn't have opened the door.

I feel all weak for some reason.
Your smile is making me unsettled.
Shall we do this another time? Yes.
You should go. Please. I will cope.

Of course you can. You must. I cannot
let people know you are back. I
promised we would not speak. I fought
so hard. I cannot cry like that again.

Please leave. I don't want to know you.
Depression, you were not a good friend to me.
I'm sorry. Please. Please leave. No don't hug
me. Don't come closer. Don't strangle me again.