so my uncle told me that he wont be doing kemo, or surgery to remove the cancer thats killing him, mainly because of what will happen to the quality of his life during and after kemo and surgery. so he has about 5 to 10 years to live, according to what the doctors in dallas say. i dont think i've ever seen him like this. but he's accepted his death, and i have a lot of respect for him for that. its just hard to deal with, especailly with him. for those of you who stumble upon this little web journal, and dont know me personally, i dont really know who my dad is and have almost know memory of him. so i've had many different male influence in my life, and my uncle is one of them. he was 32 when i was born, and i'll be 32 when he dies. ironic. one life begins when another ends, so it goes.
i cut myself shaving yesterday. i looked in the mirror, and remembered looking up at my father, who at the time was a tower of a man, and asked him why i had all those little pieces of paper on his face where the blood was. i'm kinda glad i can actually remember something like that, but the thing that still troubles me is that i look exactly like a man i've never known, or will ever know.
i cut myself shaving yesterday. i looked in the mirror, and remembered looking up at my father, who at the time was a tower of a man, and asked him why i had all those little pieces of paper on his face where the blood was. i'm kinda glad i can actually remember something like that, but the thing that still troubles me is that i look exactly like a man i've never known, or will ever know.
I think there is a little more to do in Denver than in Boise; if not only because we have more than a couple of places to go and see live music, and the fact that there's more than one store like the Record Exchange. One of my best friends is from Boise, and our band recently went through there on a tour. (We played with Bovalexia at Neurolux during their farewell show). Do you ever go and see shows at Satano (the basement under Jeremy from Boise's house), or anything put-on by Fort Hazel?
One of my favorite things about Boise aside from the Record Exchange -- and this is going to sound silly -- is the fact that you can go to an Albertson's store and buy that really cheap Odds & Ends ice cream. You know, the kind where it's a mix of two flavors from when they switched flavors in the packing machine? We can't get that here.
I'm sorry to hear about your uncle, but depending on how he spends his remaining time he might be around a lot longer than the doctors say. The happier he is, the better he just might get ... you and everyone around him can help him make it last. It's not over yet.
hopefully, your uncle's quality of life will be much better without the chemo than with it. chances are that it'd last just as long if he had treatment than if he hadn't.
see ya around