black_tar_heroin

i had a retarded man with a felon hound me... for two hours..

he is pissed i forgot his name and when his girlfriend calls, i tell her he is gone...

and fuck i never EVER see him..

and then he comes back and tells me i am not working FAST enough..

he called me a SMART ASS 4 times...

and i said sorry once...

and then i was like fuck it.

i kept thinking about stabbing him... becuase he would win in a straight up fist fight...

all over because i dont wrap crab legs fast enough..

its funny they all hate me..

dont think i am funny...

and insult me...

and i stare at them... like they are the biggest losers in the world...

I WIN... they suck..

and get this ... i walk out...

and they call me...

and say sorry and come back..

i came back and took the day off..

i went out with Rich and got other applications..

Rich and I played OUTCAST... and then i went home...

feeling REALLY bad..

i got home..

tell my dad some violent retard wanted to kick my ass..

and he is glad i didnt punch him..

i havent punched anyone in YEARS..

fighting is so stupid...

but he was cool and errr... my dad pays about 400 usd so i can drive a month...

and when my insurence was 350 he paid and never complained...

i stopped being a panicy mess...

i am sick of it..

and no one likes it..

so i stopped...

anything can be stopped..

so i am home and i get a email saying Natalie has thought it over and we cant talk anymore...

and it is the cherry...

i send her back an email saying she isnt allowed to go to my funeral...

that is all i have..

no girl in her right mind would love me...

i am serious...

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the only thing that happened that was happy was a letter from ARI...

that was nice