fucking oil!

Fuck i hate the news. My dad goes to bed listening to it every night. bully to that shite. i left the house yesterday for 9 hours. I havent been outside so much this year. That has been the longest i have left the house in months, let alone at dark.
Car wrecks and medicine give me the creeps and i am ultra paraniod. not in that cool way.. were dude i hate people but i still manage to drag my ass to whoever to bitch about how i hate the world... i hate the world properly alone in my garage..
its nice to not be oblivious to people that care about me..
you can go your whole life and not realize that.
i need to get use to seeing civilization.
this year at in a whole, i have left the house a total of 60 hours... that isnt a lot but hell..9 of those hours were last night.. and most of the hours were standing in line.
i am tricking my self so i will be OK in school.
i spent 6 hours at church.
My friends church is odd, there are kids that live there, they are all so nice and shelterd.........
its so hard to curse god with virgin ears and eyes.
they are so lucky. they can be happy.
daniyell:
i never, ever, listen to or watch the news. I really don't see any point.