My life is going to bexome less complicated in 48 hours. I'm sad to see my ex-girlfriend leave the country for so long, espeically since we only cleaned the slate between us last night. I was at her going away party and there was a lot of weired feelings between us and pretending that it was okay.
BUt we have a large group of friends that we both know and so everyone was hanging out late night. The latter the night went the more surreal things became, especially since this othe guy from my previous posts was there and everyone was trying to play it cool. I thought people were acting weired and then I overheared a conversation where people were trying saying something like this:
So what's up with Will and Ok?
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I don't know but there both sad and frustrated at this situation.
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He's still upset about Lucas?
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They both are.../
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I mean...they were in LOVE.
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And now this this.
I was happy that our friends choose to remember that we were happy together, but then it became to much of a reminder of what the hell went wrong. People kept taking turns talking to us and seperating us. And by the end of the night, there were no words to say to anyone.
I felt like I was drifting 10 feet above my body looking at myself starring off into space.
I went home alone arround 5:30am with the last crew of people leaving for Brooklyn. She went home alone, and the best part was I ended up sharing a cab with Lucas all the way downtown. In no way am I mad at this guy, or towards her for that matter any more. I've run out of time to be made against my own will and and so reconciliation can only happen over time.
Life is so freaking crazy sometimes, Either way yesterday's radio show was a blast, Pete Miserwas dope and one of the coolest people to kick it with. Tonight is his show at the Mercury Lounge which I'll be going to for sure. Hope to see some of you folks out there today since some of the SGNY people are getting together.
Peace.
BUt we have a large group of friends that we both know and so everyone was hanging out late night. The latter the night went the more surreal things became, especially since this othe guy from my previous posts was there and everyone was trying to play it cool. I thought people were acting weired and then I overheared a conversation where people were trying saying something like this:
So what's up with Will and Ok?
/
I don't know but there both sad and frustrated at this situation.
/
He's still upset about Lucas?
/
They both are.../
/
I mean...they were in LOVE.
/
And now this this.
I was happy that our friends choose to remember that we were happy together, but then it became to much of a reminder of what the hell went wrong. People kept taking turns talking to us and seperating us. And by the end of the night, there were no words to say to anyone.
I felt like I was drifting 10 feet above my body looking at myself starring off into space.
I went home alone arround 5:30am with the last crew of people leaving for Brooklyn. She went home alone, and the best part was I ended up sharing a cab with Lucas all the way downtown. In no way am I mad at this guy, or towards her for that matter any more. I've run out of time to be made against my own will and and so reconciliation can only happen over time.
Life is so freaking crazy sometimes, Either way yesterday's radio show was a blast, Pete Miserwas dope and one of the coolest people to kick it with. Tonight is his show at the Mercury Lounge which I'll be going to for sure. Hope to see some of you folks out there today since some of the SGNY people are getting together.
Peace.