bixbygrendel

So yeah. Aside from that whole "Man Period" thing (see last journal) finally being done. I think I may have chosen a bride. You heard me. I don't think she knows yet. But I'm sure she'll be thrilled to find out. Here's how I forsee it......

"Hi, I just thought I should let you know that you're gonna be my wife soon."
"Super. Thanks for letting me know. Would I have been emarrassed if I didn't show up."


Here's how it would most likely go......

"Hi, I just thought I should let you know that you're gonna be my wife soon."
"GET AWAY FROM ME YOU CREEP!!!!!" As she pepper sprays me in the face til the canister is emptied.

Anyway.................................. yeah. I'm so fucking busy that for just one night. Yes just one. I want to take it off. No job. No photographing. No friends. NO FAMILY. And no abstinence. I think I deserve a shag after having turned down 9 different sex partner offers since the descision kicked in. And of course. Now that I want it (for just ONE night) I'm sure it will be a virtual impossibility. But alas.. I don't muchly care. And I'm sure my will is bulletproof and I won't give in to my wants.


Sure am horny though. The whole no masturbation part of the abstinence is also tough. Don't be me people. Just don't do it.