bixbygrendel

I HATE
I HATE
I HATE
I HATE
I HATE
I HATE
I HATE
I HATE HER!

16 friends and family dead. 9 more killed by drunk drivers. 8 out of the nine MURDERERS got what they had coming. Long sentences in PRISON. One was killed in prison. Good. That's what they really should have gotten.
But one. Just one bitch. She didn't get what she desereved. Alot of people think I should get over it. Well too fucking bad. I'm still angry. I'm still full of hate. I still want to kill. I still get that boiling up inside me feeling that I know means I do things...bad bad things. Some people don't deserve these things. This one does. This one makes me want to kill. This one makes me not stop hating. This one got too little handed to her. And when she walks away from her "Healing Lodge" 2014 I may still be mad. I may still hate. I may still want to kill. No matter how much I can stay calm and peaceful through most of the shit of life.... this.... this made me mad. This still makes me mad. I want to see her gasp for breath. I want to see her fade away. I want to watch her bleed in my hands. I want to make her die. I can't help it.
I try to let go.
I try to accept.
I try to stop all this hate.
I try so hard.
I just want to kill
Why is it this that I can't deal with?
Why is it the good ones?
I know some shit people that can be taken. Why not them?

This is the story for those who don't know.