So it's Friday is it? That means the BULLSHIT surrounding my camera may cease to be a problem in my life. Ah wouldn't that be nice? FUCK YEAH IT WOULD!!!! I had it for 15 days then it and my life and all my dreams, self respect, ambition, and GIVING BACK to the community was STRIPPED from me. But aside from RAGING ANGER that still persists... When that camera is back in my hands I can get back to taking pictures of the things that my life that make me feel... well anything really. I'm fairly apathetic.
I have to get back. I NEED to get a life or something similar going again. A new one. A boring one. A legal (hard) one. Why? Because the nest person who locks me in cage like an animal while the BITCH (HATE HATE HATE) who took Tarrah-Lee from this earth and 5 other people on July 1st 2004 is sitting in her "HEALING LODGE" well.... needless to say BiXbY"SIX AND A HALF FEET OF HELL" Grendel is gonna take another stroll down a familiar dark path and paint it THE FUCK RED!!!!
See, that's where it comes from. I sold weed. Just weed. Barely different than alcohol. To people 16 and older ONLY! I got caged. I got destroyed mentally. The 15 friend I've burried was killed along with 5 others and she gets a healing lodge......................................... Not cool
................................Hmmm.... alot of that came out of nowhere.... I guess I feel a few things.
Time for a BiX List.
Recent emotions
apathy (it counts)
loneliness
anger
rage
hatred
loathing
disgust
a thing that was sorta a distant cousin of happiness when I speak/chat with VERY few people.
I've rambled....
BiXbYism 1 When life feels a little stranger than it did the day before, look inside. Have you changed? If not, look around. Has the world changed. If yes.... look back inside.
BiXbYism 2 Who needs a gun when you have me?
BiXbYism 3 I have a problem. It needs to go away. I need to convi=nce it. Just like that.
Fuck........ ..... ............. I need............you....
.................................whoever you are................................
"If I close my mind in fear
please pry it open.
And if my face becomes sincere
...beware.
And if I start to come undone
stitch me together.
And if you see me strut,
remind me of what left this outlaw torn."
-From "Outlaw Torn"-Metallica
UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE
My cars fuckered. Anyone with any spare money will become my best friend.
Oh I soo didn't need that right now. Fuckin control arms. Who needs control anyway? 
I have to get back. I NEED to get a life or something similar going again. A new one. A boring one. A legal (hard) one. Why? Because the nest person who locks me in cage like an animal while the BITCH (HATE HATE HATE) who took Tarrah-Lee from this earth and 5 other people on July 1st 2004 is sitting in her "HEALING LODGE" well.... needless to say BiXbY"SIX AND A HALF FEET OF HELL" Grendel is gonna take another stroll down a familiar dark path and paint it THE FUCK RED!!!!
See, that's where it comes from. I sold weed. Just weed. Barely different than alcohol. To people 16 and older ONLY! I got caged. I got destroyed mentally. The 15 friend I've burried was killed along with 5 others and she gets a healing lodge......................................... Not cool
................................Hmmm.... alot of that came out of nowhere.... I guess I feel a few things.
Time for a BiX List.
Recent emotions
apathy (it counts)
loneliness
anger
rage
hatred
loathing
disgust
a thing that was sorta a distant cousin of happiness when I speak/chat with VERY few people.
I've rambled....
BiXbYism 1 When life feels a little stranger than it did the day before, look inside. Have you changed? If not, look around. Has the world changed. If yes.... look back inside.
BiXbYism 2 Who needs a gun when you have me?
BiXbYism 3 I have a problem. It needs to go away. I need to convi=nce it. Just like that.
Fuck........ ..... ............. I need............you....
.................................whoever you are................................
"If I close my mind in fear
please pry it open.
And if my face becomes sincere
...beware.
And if I start to come undone
stitch me together.
And if you see me strut,
remind me of what left this outlaw torn."
-From "Outlaw Torn"-Metallica
UPDATE UPDATE UPDATE
My cars fuckered. Anyone with any spare money will become my best friend.
Oh I soo didn't need that right now. Fuckin control arms. Who needs control anyway? VIEW 15 of 15 COMMENTS
Sitting on one's butt all weekend isn't so shabby either
Kisses