I had a dream last night that I was a single dad. I walked her to school. I made her lunch. I did the housework and my job, then I make her supper. And after eating... she just isn't there anymore. I have that dream alot.
It's been 10 years.
Very long. Very hard. Very much not my fault she isn't in my life. So...
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It's been 10 years.
Very long. Very hard. Very much not my fault she isn't in my life. So...
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Now we may or not know that I live every day of my life in a rather disturbing amount of discomfort/pain. This gets worse the more I move around and the less I sleep. So I get my runnin around all day, haven't slept in months ass into the shower, like just now.... I'm still sorta wet and naked (does that turn you on? It's...
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whitewidow:
Thats why we should be born without heart
Kisses
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Okay.
So.
This.
Is.
Just.
Dumb.
My room mate. And my friend. Have been charged with assault with a weapon. And a few other charges.
The wapon. CAP GUNS!!! Like the ones children play with.
Some dumb bitch says that Will shot at her. Yeah. Right.
She says his face was evil and freaky. THAT'S HIS FUCKING FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Will doesn't need...
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So.
This.
Is.
Just.
Dumb.
My room mate. And my friend. Have been charged with assault with a weapon. And a few other charges.
The wapon. CAP GUNS!!! Like the ones children play with.
Some dumb bitch says that Will shot at her. Yeah. Right.
She says his face was evil and freaky. THAT'S HIS FUCKING FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ALL THE TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Will doesn't need...
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beledi:
People are crazy, absolutely fucking crazy.
t7:
The cow is a dog.
My back hurts like Hell.
I hate my cane.
My cookies are burnt.
Nobody brought me cookies.
I made my own. I'm no good.
I hate not having good cookies.
Not smoking. Soon to be at first full 24 hours.
I need a drink. Bad.
In good news. I'm at $522,800 in roulette since I started at $2000 and play for half an hour tops...
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I hate my cane.
My cookies are burnt.
Nobody brought me cookies.
I made my own. I'm no good.
I hate not having good cookies.
Not smoking. Soon to be at first full 24 hours.
I need a drink. Bad.
In good news. I'm at $522,800 in roulette since I started at $2000 and play for half an hour tops...
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miyu:
Hahaha......sounds good.
Come up with a wicked rating scale on how f***ed up a back can be. I like it. I wonder if doctors would listen to us more if we had this type of thing? hahaha
Come up with a wicked rating scale on how f***ed up a back can be. I like it. I wonder if doctors would listen to us more if we had this type of thing? hahaha
whitewidow:
Awww - I hope your back feels better real soon
Kisses
Kisses
FUCK I JUST WANNA..................................
....I don't know what...........................................
........BUT FUCK DO I WANNA.........................................
I am an ordained reverend. I can legally marry people. My friend Ricks states this as "Uniquely terrifying". He also freely sayed that I'm without a doubt one his more interesting friends.
I'm fucking awesome. I just am. FUCK I LOVE ME!!!!
I really enjoy knowing that if I'm not looking...and I'm...
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....I don't know what...........................................
........BUT FUCK DO I WANNA.........................................
I am an ordained reverend. I can legally marry people. My friend Ricks states this as "Uniquely terrifying". He also freely sayed that I'm without a doubt one his more interesting friends.
I'm fucking awesome. I just am. FUCK I LOVE ME!!!!
I really enjoy knowing that if I'm not looking...and I'm...
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rpg:
too bad your week is looking like crap. Sounds like you need another visit from the SG crew, especially now that you have a corkscrew!!!
beledi:
I love spiders. I love the fact that they eat other bugs and can create intricately woven webs using silk from their bums. It's fantastic 
So I'd bitch about V is for Vendetta a little but I'm just not in it right now. Why you ask. Fine. Here goes:
1)The letter from EE Borittos saying I'm employed there is still not in my possesion. I need to take that to the court house and them wait to be put on the docket for who knows when.
2)My mom won't stop...
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1)The letter from EE Borittos saying I'm employed there is still not in my possesion. I need to take that to the court house and them wait to be put on the docket for who knows when.
2)My mom won't stop...
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rpg:
I'll have to think of a way to initiate the mass sending of corkscrews to you!!! 
beledi:
I wish I did know a word like that. It would have saved me and my family a whole lot of grief...
NOW SG HAS A THING ON V FOR VENDETTA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY CAN'T I GET AWAY FROM THAT SHIT???????????????????????????? GUARRRGH!!!!!!!!! I HATE THAT GOOFY LOOKIN TERD!!!!!!!!!! HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KILL KILL KILL KILL KILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! grrrr.
I took Mel (a friends youner sister) to get food today. I don't think she'd eaten in days. She has...
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I took Mel (a friends youner sister) to get food today. I don't think she'd eaten in days. She has...
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beledi:
That's just sugar
I like that. It's a good phrase.
So it's Friday is it? That means the BULLSHIT surrounding my camera may cease to be a problem in my life. Ah wouldn't that be nice? FUCK YEAH IT WOULD!!!! I had it for 15 days then it and my life and all my dreams, self respect, ambition, and GIVING BACK to the community was STRIPPED from me. But aside from RAGING ANGER that still...
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beledi:
Banana bread does increase my awesome quotient...lol.
Sitting on one's butt all weekend isn't so shabby either
Sitting on one's butt all weekend isn't so shabby either
whitewidow:
Nope - the hero thing wasn't here when I first joined...but that was a long time ago in a land far away
Kisses
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Okay. I've kept my mouth shut for long enough. This V is for Vendetta movie......... How bout Q is for Queerest Looking "Action Hero" EVER!!!!!!!!! What the Hell? Am I supposed to take this goof ass seriously? AM I?? Cuz I'm not!!! If I was badass tyrant (which I almost am) and some trimmed bangs queer as folk mask wearing guy came to kick my...
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rpg:
hmmmm, I don't remember if there was a fizzle or not, but a loud POP for sure. The strobe is still working properly. Tech support was good today, they gave me some things to check and a Canadian repair faciility to send it to. Good thing I have backup strobes. otherwise, I'd be screwed until I could get a replacement.
rpg:
You're a couple of years too late for my old studio strobes. They served me well. but if I find I have something I want to get rid of, I'll let you know.
This song makes me fall apart a little inside. I think it's supposed to.
In This River by Black Label Society
Ive been around this world, Yet I see no end.
All shall fade to black again and again.
This storm thats broken me, my only friend.
Yeah
In this river all shall fade to black
In this river aint no coming back
In this...
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In This River by Black Label Society
Ive been around this world, Yet I see no end.
All shall fade to black again and again.
This storm thats broken me, my only friend.
Yeah
In this river all shall fade to black
In this river aint no coming back
In this...
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beledi:
You're very right...good luck with it though.
t7:
The hair was intresting I have to admit, but would look somewhat strange on me.
OH wow! Just what I always wantd. So much snow that I keep thinking my 3rd floor baalcony will soon be a first floor patio.
Yeah, that;s my favorite thing! Sure love that snow! It's fun digging your car out for 40 mins with a SQUEEGIE!!!!!!!!!!!! That's right. A squeegie. That's all this guy has in his trunk! I keep it next to the dead...
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Yeah, that;s my favorite thing! Sure love that snow! It's fun digging your car out for 40 mins with a SQUEEGIE!!!!!!!!!!!! That's right. A squeegie. That's all this guy has in his trunk! I keep it next to the dead...
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rpg:
Have you gotten your camera back yet?
whitewidow:
So are you allowed to go out and about to Regina yet?
Kisses
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Still I do not sleep.... I write I love it, I hate , I toss it. I even sculpted again for the first time in over a year...... I threw it off the balcony.......It's in a number of places along Kingsmere now......... Oh yeah!!! All the people I've contacted via whay-have-you..... I have 2 artists..... TWO!!!!!!!!! What the fuck kin dof lame ass show can...
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beledi:
not the dirty bedroom dance!
and it just gets sticky, not warm.
not the dirty bedroom dance!
and it just gets sticky, not warm.
rpg:
My first "laugh out loud" moment of the day! Thanks for your amazing post! 
Kisses
How's that?