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ok so my insurance company denied my Lyrica. Lyrica has changed my life. It has made it pain free and seizure free. i am bawling right now because i dont know what to do. i have to appeal. i talked to my neurologisist. i talked to my primary and i talked to my insurance company. they want to put me on neurotin which doesn't work. i was on it before and it made me aggressive and depressed and didn't help with the pain. i feel so helpless now. lyrica if i paid out pocket would be like three hundred dollars. i feel so helpless and scared right now. noone seems to care that i talk to. i have an appointment with my primary on monday to talk to him about it. i have to explain that they want me on neurotin. i just wanna give up. seriously. all the lady said was i can force the insurance to pay for a med that they wont cover. i hate being sick. i hate this. i dont know what to do. im gonna be in constant pain again and have seizures everyday again. just to save my insurance company some money. in addiction to the fact that i just did a paper on insurance companies using drugs for off label drugs. neurotin is the number one drug they use. the biggest lawsuit ever was for this drug being misused. misused meaning giving it to everyone for everything when there was no proof that this drug does anything for anything. the biggest lawsuit EVER settlement for anything. billions of dollars were spent was in honesty is a drop in the bucket for the amount of money these guys make a year. i am scared to DEATH. i wanna roll up in a ball and cry the rest of the day.