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Ok I need to call my pain management doctor now. I feel so fucked up cause I have been high on morphine since like 4 pm yesterday. I was so fucked up I went and got my ear plugs stretched and I didn't realize they were purple and black. I thought they were a completely different color. Not two colors. Plus I have no idea how to take them out. I've tried but frankly I am still kind of stoned and need to sober up to figure out how to get them out. I like the gauge though. I am surprised the guy did it me being obviously really fucking high. I was on nothing but the morphine too. Some strong stuff. But anyway I feel horrible because someone that I care so deeply for is hitting rock bottom now at his rehab. He is not coping very well. I'm not sure how red my eyes look in this picture but in the mirror I look really really high. Like I'm on crack or something.

I wish I could be there for him but he prefers to do it alone and I am going to respect his decision. But if he changed his mind I would be there for him physically and mentally in a heartbeat and he knows this.

So I am about to call my pain management doctor to get me some more pain meds. I still have more morphine but man that shit is too strong! haha those who know me well won't believe I said a pain med was too strong but I also don't need to get physically addicted to morphine. I just hope my pain management doctor doesn't try to prescribe me some bullshit drug like Ultram or Neurontin.

PS I asked what gauge it was but I forgot. Can anyone tell from the picture??

double PS my vision is going super bad now. here is two close ups of my gauges so someone can help me remember what gauge it is