bitchboi

I keep thinking about the ol ex girlfriend the last couple days. Sure it was a living hell the last two years of the 4 1/2 we spent together. But after 3 years apart I'm only thinking of the things I miss most. Nobody ever made me feel the way she did. That includes the anger and the pain as well as the love and caring end of the relationship. I'm blaming the TLC channel for running ads for some stupid reality show about getting a second chance with an ex lover. Damn the media to hell. Now that we both live in different parts of the country, It's been easier to forget about her. I don't see places we're been together very often.. though there are quite a few in Chicago, It's not wear we lived together. I almost feel foolish still missing her after such a long time. But I honestly thought she was the one and I still think so. How can that be when we ended up not being able to communicate at all in the end? We have not talked in 1 1/2 years and I'm starting to think I will never speak to her again. That could be a good thing though. I have no stress in my life anymore. That is the best feeling I've ever had. I live where I want, I love what I do and nobody is here to change that. Sure I'm lonely and yes I hate sleeping alone every night. But is your sanity worth giving? I toss the idea through my head all the time. If only that next person that made me feel the way she did entered my life. I just hope it if it happens, it doesn't bring back the pain that she once left me with.