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it's been a little while. i'm trying to straighten myself out. i like thinking about my options, and talking things out with SUICIDALinNC. he's actually ditching me and asheville for bigger and better things. like a good job with lots of money and big dreams of a life in NYC. good for him, bad for me.
but enough about that.
this weekend was AWESOME....
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but enough about that.
this weekend was AWESOME....
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suicidalinnc:
you masturbate?... ew.
f boone
f boone
it's not working. nope. i hate everyone here. fuck everyone. no, seriously. it's like goddamn high school. it's like...i like this town so why can't i just like it. why does everyone have to go and ruin it. why do i LET people ruin it. i swear to god i dont need anyone.
people try to act like they're mature about shit when they're not....
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people try to act like they're mature about shit when they're not....
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collapsingstar:
You don't neceserily need to keep the positive outlook going all the time.
For me I go back to a time in my memory when I felt that connection with nature. I know it's cheesy to use the nature word, but I really believe that a lot of the disconnection I feel with other people is really my disconnection with the natural world. Anyway.
If you can recall and live in a memory of your greatest peace or connection; just for a moment, it can serve as an amazing counter force within you. It'll start as the smallest of voices but once you give it its' moment of attention, you'll see it won't leave. You can use that little voice to get angry at the other voice that is perpetuating the bad feelings.
The point of the exercise is to separate you from the thoughts that are causing the grief. To back away from them and rise above them, kicking as you do. The brilliant part of this whole thing is that any thoughts that go through your head that cause you grief, WILL THEMSELVES become the enemy; and no longer will you agree with those thoughts that cause you distress.
I totally got carried away there. At least you know that relative strangers care about your well being.
For me I go back to a time in my memory when I felt that connection with nature. I know it's cheesy to use the nature word, but I really believe that a lot of the disconnection I feel with other people is really my disconnection with the natural world. Anyway.
If you can recall and live in a memory of your greatest peace or connection; just for a moment, it can serve as an amazing counter force within you. It'll start as the smallest of voices but once you give it its' moment of attention, you'll see it won't leave. You can use that little voice to get angry at the other voice that is perpetuating the bad feelings.
The point of the exercise is to separate you from the thoughts that are causing the grief. To back away from them and rise above them, kicking as you do. The brilliant part of this whole thing is that any thoughts that go through your head that cause you grief, WILL THEMSELVES become the enemy; and no longer will you agree with those thoughts that cause you distress.
I totally got carried away there. At least you know that relative strangers care about your well being.
andtherobots:
My dreams keep me alive. This town is the worst place for anyone who ever wanted anything better for themselves.
I'm down for the cross-country bus trip with you. I went to san francisco last year by myself. It was great. I was the dirty boy in the back with his headphones and drawing pad.
Your dreams give you something to look forward to at times like these. I know it's a bit cliche, but dreams are what seperate "real" people from "fake" people. You're not really alive if you don't dream, even if it doesn't come true. If that made any sense at all.
I'm down for the cross-country bus trip with you. I went to san francisco last year by myself. It was great. I was the dirty boy in the back with his headphones and drawing pad.
Your dreams give you something to look forward to at times like these. I know it's a bit cliche, but dreams are what seperate "real" people from "fake" people. You're not really alive if you don't dream, even if it doesn't come true. If that made any sense at all.
i can now relate to anyone that's ever said it's hard to be in one place for too long. i always had this idea in my head that when i was away from home, i'd be in the perfect place.
well, i don't have trouble believing that this is where i live now. but i am having a lot of trouble trying not to feel...
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well, i don't have trouble believing that this is where i live now. but i am having a lot of trouble trying not to feel...
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energy_____:
Stop now. I stopped five weeks ago, minus a few drunkin smokes here and there. But I am not a smoker anymore. Just not.
andtherobots:
hey that sounds fun. visitors are always great.
I'm still looking forward to not being home anymore.
congrats on the no cigs. I hope I never start.
I'm still looking forward to not being home anymore.
congrats on the no cigs.
I hope I never start.
distra:
Sorry, I done it..... Someone started another one of those damn cute threads, I put in your pic from your last J* entry....
you are a "Hot Topic"
Link to thread
you are a "Hot Topic"
Link to thread
mister_x:
it was.
heh, i'm considered starting a procrastinators group but i always find better things to do,
canopeners.
heh, i'm considered starting a procrastinators group but i always find better things to do,
canopeners.
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distra:
Nice Job wit the halloween pictures..... 
suicidalinnc:
even if i really loved it here i'd still have the ability to look beyond
oh ya... not needing hugs and comfort is one of the coolest things you can achieve. then youre really bad ass. tom waits gives me hugs late at night
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oh ya... not needing hugs and comfort is one of the coolest things you can achieve. then youre really bad ass. tom waits gives me hugs late at night
[Edited on Oct 22, 2004 5:09AM]
rough night...
my friend beckie?? one of her friends died from back home. car accident...
it's really hard just to see the hurt in her eyes, like that. you can actually see the reality hit her every few minutes. she'll pull herself together, and then she just lets out the saddest "oooh shitttt..." ... that pain is bad. that pain is some shit that i...
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my friend beckie?? one of her friends died from back home. car accident...
it's really hard just to see the hurt in her eyes, like that. you can actually see the reality hit her every few minutes. she'll pull herself together, and then she just lets out the saddest "oooh shitttt..." ... that pain is bad. that pain is some shit that i...
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how:
your advice worked. thank you again.
distra:
Sorry you and your friend are having a bad time.... I feel ya. Keep yer head straight. later girl....
TJB
TJB
I was just listening to Total Eclipse of the Heart...
what does that mean??
i've thoroughly enjoyed my visit home this fall break. i got to hang out with carly AGAIN, as she made an impromtu visit to her hometown as well! we got to do the same thing we did all summer...drive around aimlessly with nothing much to do at all. she's going to...
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what does that mean??
i've thoroughly enjoyed my visit home this fall break. i got to hang out with carly AGAIN, as she made an impromtu visit to her hometown as well! we got to do the same thing we did all summer...drive around aimlessly with nothing much to do at all. she's going to...
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mister_x:
yes, baths are great. i can't take baths too often because i end up just laying there for a long time.
tangledupinblue:
Everyone should move to Asheville! Our farm is in Franklin, and man do I miss WNC! Just wandering by, thought I'd say hello.
well, the weekend was perfect. it was relaxing and i spent it with some of the best people in the entire world...
which is just what i needed. it's a temporary cure. i also re-evaluated my LIFE on the way home. really hard. i know it sounds dumb. i'm not really sure what to do when i get into a place i've been in lately...i...
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which is just what i needed. it's a temporary cure. i also re-evaluated my LIFE on the way home. really hard. i know it sounds dumb. i'm not really sure what to do when i get into a place i've been in lately...i...
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andtherobots:
Hey thanks. I apreciate that.
distra:
way to go, guy. good choice, i'm sure.
I have been at that place for four years. It made me so miserable. I will not be able to make as much money in this area, but I am thinking quality of life is more important than the money....... TJB
I have been at that place for four years. It made me so miserable. I will not be able to make as much money in this area, but I am thinking quality of life is more important than the money....... TJB
i really gotta get some laundry done...but fuck that,
who needs clean clothes for a weekend of PARTY!!!
dont forget about poland, guys.
who needs clean clothes for a weekend of PARTY!!!
dont forget about poland, guys.
kayla_:
i stumbled upon your profile by accident. just thought i'd let you know that you are sooo adorable 
excowboy:
I'm not here by accident... i saw yer pic an' came a lookin, soo........
Hi
Jeff Buckley kicked ass!
Hi
Jeff Buckley kicked ass!
on the audition
cutie
i might audition for a local production
of one flew over the cuckoos nest
that would be cool
and they do usually like it
when you brush your teeth
before an audition
I've never seen the vagina monolauges. Don't think I didn't want to. I think this town is too conservative to let the show pass through. Good luck with that