bishop

Okay - if you get the chance - go back and read the 10-1-2002 journal and post a reply..I think it is important and a wee bit of a prelude to this. When speaking just purely of physical attraction (not that it is ultimately that important at all) - I subscribe to Bishop's Big Bang theory. And, NO, by Big Bang I am NOT talking about an earth shattering male cum shot guaranteed to dislodge your uterus (and in my case I am more likely to generate an orgasm where it will dribble down me, run underneath and come in my own ass) - (sarcasm implied). There has been mucho talk on the boards and in journals about fat guys and fat girls and who likes them, etc. Do you have "types"? As in, "I like this type of guy/girl". I don't have a "type". Not short tall, fat, thin, blonde, brunette, athletic, handicapped. I wait for the Big Bang...which is almost like a little spark in my head that goes off when I see someone. I could see an empirically beautiful woman and nothing. I typically won't date a girl if there has not been this spark. It is so hard to describe. My "type" I guess is "I know it when I see it" - (like our Supreme Court and obscenity). It is just when I see someone I will have this swoony "wow" feeling inside - and this is the attraction - but it is not defined by a type. It could be someone that others find to be ugly. Some "wows" have hit me surfing through here. Just my own personal thing. And eyes and smiles do it 200 times more than a cute arse or great "rack".

On another note....coolest thing...over the past two days a 6 year old girl asked me to teach her the game of chess. Knowing I am really good at it she asked..and we started from scratch with names of pieces and how they move and went into basic strategy. Just watching her absorb it...apply it...all from what I gave her......just a great feeling. Teaching small children new things will give you a feeling that is almost impossible to match. Try it and see.

A song for you all about two things I feel too often..love followed by pain.

Tender is the night
Lying by your side
Tender is the touch
Of someone that you love too much
Tender is the day
The demons go away
Lord I need to find
Someone who can heal my mind
Come on, Come on, Come on
Get through it
Come on, Come on, Come on
Love's the greatest thing
That we have
I'm waiting for that feeling
I'm Waiting for that feeling
Waiting for that feeling to come

Tender is the ghost
The ghost I love the most
Hiding from the sun
Waiting for the night to come
Tender is my heart
I'm screwing up my life
Lord I need to find
Someone who can heal my mind
Come on, Come on, Come on
Get through it
Come on, Come on, Come on
Love's the greatest thing
That we have
I'm waiting for that feeling
I'm Waiting for that feeling
Waiting for that feeling to come