bishbash

So its Good Friday and the weekend looms and time off personally i would rather be at work at least my mind is wrapped up in that not self pity fear and regret.I have one of them feelings that someone wants to tell me something but cant or are scared to very odd.
I see myself at the moment as a emotionally wreck crashing into the rocks and burning but i got grab the wheel and stir myself to safety.
I have come up with ten commandments to help me thru it al

THOU SHALL TAKE MORE NOTICE OF MY FRIENDS
THOU SHALL THINK OF MYSELF MORE
THOU SHALL LOOK AFTER MYSELF
THOU SHALL NOT BLAME MYSELF TOTALLY
THOU SHALL MOVE ON AND ENJOY LIFE
THOU SHALL STILL LOOK AFTER THE ONES I HAVE LOST
THOU SHALL MAKE THE MOST IMPORTANT DECISION IN MY LIFE SOON
THOU SHALL CRY,FEEL ANGRY AND LET EMOTIONS RUN THERE COURSE
THOU SHALL MAKE SURE I DON,T MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES
THOU SHALL CARRY ON EVEN THOU LIFE SUCKS

I kind of think im the toy that you wanted for xmas which you were so happy to get i was only shiny and new and loved to be played with,we had some amazing times together you were my best friend my soulmate then i started to fray round the edges didnt have the same spark lost my sheen got ditched maybe a new toy will come along take my place be all shiny and nice and love to be played with hopefully one day walking down the street you see that old toy in a shop window all retro and remember fucking hell i used have one of them they were awesome i had so much fun with it i kinda miss it.

woah very deep

So this weekend i have four days off woot woot so going to do some diy ready to sell the house im back in Wednesday for one day then the rather lush purplesiamese is visiting and we are heading to Manchester to the Papa Rioach gig which should be fun.
Enjoy your Easter guys n gals hope you get loadsa of easter eggs gorge yourself on choccy and turkey and such forth.
xxxxxxx
bash