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Juxtaposition, Catharsis and Denouement

My five year relationship is coming to an end, and I'm doing everything I can to move on. Thanks for everyone's kind words and help. It's meant a lot to me.

Sharing a bed with someone who doesn't care is painful

Spending a month wondering how you could save a relationship is painful

having her leave you alone for almost 8 hours is unbeliveably painful

having her not return your calls or your text messages is painful

how can someone love you, and bring you so much pain?

I remember back in highschool I took a...
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I'm trying to be optimistic, so I'm ignoring posting about my current relationship turmoil...

My mother is helping me buy a car... not just any car... a scion xa. I test drove it last week and it's hella sweet. So if worst come to worst, I still have a very pimpable ride.

One of the few positive things going on in my life is that during this holiday season I have been working part-time at Toys R Us. I did this last year and compared to my job at the gasstation, working TRU was eeeeeeasssy. This year it's a little rougher, mostly because I've been promoted at the Gas Station and TRU has actually put me in...
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Still in pain, just not as much. I'm almost optimistic, and I'm definitely a fighter. Wish me luck.

I'm starting to believe that nothing hurts more than unrequited love. I really want to expound on this thought, but I am so torn, and so filled with emotions that I'm not sure I could survive explaining the thought. What kind of mess did I put myself in? I know it's my fault.

So much depends
upon

the red wheel
barrow

glazed in rain
water

beside the white
chickens

-william carlos williams.

discuss...

love hurts. a lot.

The Story:

Wednesday a customer made an attempt to drive off without paying for his gas. Our awesome clerk was aware of his intentions and attempted to chase him and get his liscense plate information. After the customer dropped the pump and ran to his car our clerk was close enough to knock on his window when the assailant crashed into an oncoming car. From...
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Beth's at her grandparents in texas. It makes me not want to tell my crazy tale of a guy trying to steal gas and crashing his car.

4 things you don't know about me

1. I've been collecting Chick Tracts I find at work. They are amusing, depressing and funny all at the same time
2. I now enjoy listening to the John Tesh radio show. He's informative, polite and the music makes me grow huge ovaries
3. I am super badass at the Tonyhawk games.
4. my knees pop a lot....
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hmm.

So Thursday a girl wanted to buy cigarettes on Thursday and I carded her. When she gave me an invalid id (i.e. it was an out of state identifaction card and it was torn in half) I refused the sale and she threw a different identification card at me. I asked if she'd apologize for the act and she refused and I threw her...
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