Spent the day roaming SF's rainy streets thinking, thinking. Ran into my old friend Angela. For any longtime readers of my journal, you will recognize Angela as the straight girl who asked me on a date and then skipped town on a study abroad program because she was afraid. She's back! Well anyway, we had a really good dinner together and she still would like to go on the ferry ride I proposed as a date when she asked me out, but as a straight woman.
Sigh. She is a good person. And funny, too. I like her a lot. I think she is one of the funniest people I know. She makes me happy; it would probably best to remain friends and not complicate that. I just thought it was funny that SHE was the one who asked me out on a date and she had to insist 10,000 times in our conversation, without me even bringing up her sexuality, that she was straight. I was thinking "Hmm...straight like a circle! Who asked me out on a date four months ago, huh?" I was kind of like "Yeah, you're straight" *nudge nudge wink wink.* I told her I was going to dedicate my life to creating an isoteric homo beam to zap at people that would activate the gene that makes you gay. Oh think of what a happy world this would be. Then she laughed and said "You know the police will never believe me, right? Officer, this lady shot this beam at me and it turned me into a homo! It's true!" Then every time she said something funny I would make trigger-pulling motions and wink at her.
I was listening to Saliva's rest in pieces because it's my new theme song.
I am starting to realize that the kind of girl I like is REALLY funny and not afraid of who she is. And someone with strong opinions. A strong person in general. Angela is not someone that I would check out first if she came into a room, but her humor makes her a very beautiful person. I was thinking that I will never meet the girl that I want randomly because if I were to base all my relationships on someone that I thought was pretty and randomly hit on, what would they be based on? Looks? First impressions? Not stable things to make a girlfriend out of. I need someone who starts out as a friend and progresses to more. So I think i'm willing to slow down in my pursuit, because i'm starting to realize this will not be a quick fix. I can't go to an LGBT convention or an Ani D show and just randomly find her, as I previously thought. This will need to be someone that I hang out with on the weekends for a long time, someone that goes to shows with me, on adventures.
But then again, we're living in the apocalypse and we'll probably all get blown up, it's time to get this show on the road.
Sigh. She is a good person. And funny, too. I like her a lot. I think she is one of the funniest people I know. She makes me happy; it would probably best to remain friends and not complicate that. I just thought it was funny that SHE was the one who asked me out on a date and she had to insist 10,000 times in our conversation, without me even bringing up her sexuality, that she was straight. I was thinking "Hmm...straight like a circle! Who asked me out on a date four months ago, huh?" I was kind of like "Yeah, you're straight" *nudge nudge wink wink.* I told her I was going to dedicate my life to creating an isoteric homo beam to zap at people that would activate the gene that makes you gay. Oh think of what a happy world this would be. Then she laughed and said "You know the police will never believe me, right? Officer, this lady shot this beam at me and it turned me into a homo! It's true!" Then every time she said something funny I would make trigger-pulling motions and wink at her.
I was listening to Saliva's rest in pieces because it's my new theme song.
I am starting to realize that the kind of girl I like is REALLY funny and not afraid of who she is. And someone with strong opinions. A strong person in general. Angela is not someone that I would check out first if she came into a room, but her humor makes her a very beautiful person. I was thinking that I will never meet the girl that I want randomly because if I were to base all my relationships on someone that I thought was pretty and randomly hit on, what would they be based on? Looks? First impressions? Not stable things to make a girlfriend out of. I need someone who starts out as a friend and progresses to more. So I think i'm willing to slow down in my pursuit, because i'm starting to realize this will not be a quick fix. I can't go to an LGBT convention or an Ani D show and just randomly find her, as I previously thought. This will need to be someone that I hang out with on the weekends for a long time, someone that goes to shows with me, on adventures.
But then again, we're living in the apocalypse and we'll probably all get blown up, it's time to get this show on the road.
My first impression of her looks, however, were negative. She was fat. Worse, she had man hands. I'm not attracted. Talking with her after the show, I find she's into girls. So I pigeonhole her into the never-in-a-million-years box.
As the night progresses, however, her personality wins me over. The fat disappears. The man hands gone. I ignore the fact that she's into girls, just like the other hundred times, I've ignored the obvious logical reasons, a girl won't go for me. She's smart, funny, strong, and wicked. The rest just stopped mattering.
So I hit on her.
Unfortunately, when we got back to her hotel room(she was out of state), a friend was there in need of support. We said our goodbyes and I left.
You're right about first impressions, but sometimes it doesn't take a long time for the outside to melt away. Sometimes only hours. There's a fat, man handed, weed smoking lesbo out there, who's face I'd love to plaster a smile on.... But then what the hell do I know.