Gah! I'm gonna claw my way out of this coffin. Suburbia has nothing to offer me except short walks to the nearby K-Mart, whereby I run up and down the display shelves and activate all of the talking animals at the same time to piss people off while I run away laughing.
There's yet another dykey poetry slam at a college in another city, so i'm making a pilgrammage. It's not the one i'm REALLY excited about thatI may perform at later on this month. I really want to start hanging out in that lesbian-beatnick circle.
I've just been thinking, though, that I concentrate too much on being a lesbian as a person. I don't concentrate enough on other things that define me. I guess it's just a big part of my life right now. I'm still figuring out what it's like to date women, be with women, what my role is with women...sometimes it is difficult to be a femme who likes other femmes. You want to bring them presents, like a guy would. But you also want the same sort of attention back because, after all, you're a girl yourself. And I do have trouble fitting in with the community because I don't like folk music and I use actual deodorant as opposed to that natural crystal thing.
I'm a femme with a butch mind.
I'm a lesbian that looks like a bisexual girl. (Yes, whenever I meet other lesbians they say I "look" like a bisexual girl, whatever that means)
I wish I could just fit into a pretty little identifiable mold and all would be well.
Time for cake, and then i'm off!
BTW I played the "Messing with the man" mission on GTA last night and blew up like 7 cars and killed like 40 innocent bystanders in a massive rampage...mwa ha.
There's yet another dykey poetry slam at a college in another city, so i'm making a pilgrammage. It's not the one i'm REALLY excited about thatI may perform at later on this month. I really want to start hanging out in that lesbian-beatnick circle.
I've just been thinking, though, that I concentrate too much on being a lesbian as a person. I don't concentrate enough on other things that define me. I guess it's just a big part of my life right now. I'm still figuring out what it's like to date women, be with women, what my role is with women...sometimes it is difficult to be a femme who likes other femmes. You want to bring them presents, like a guy would. But you also want the same sort of attention back because, after all, you're a girl yourself. And I do have trouble fitting in with the community because I don't like folk music and I use actual deodorant as opposed to that natural crystal thing.
I'm a femme with a butch mind.
I'm a lesbian that looks like a bisexual girl. (Yes, whenever I meet other lesbians they say I "look" like a bisexual girl, whatever that means)
I wish I could just fit into a pretty little identifiable mold and all would be well.
Time for cake, and then i'm off!
BTW I played the "Messing with the man" mission on GTA last night and blew up like 7 cars and killed like 40 innocent bystanders in a massive rampage...mwa ha.
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sometimes I have a hard time believing he's a real life Marine with guns and things that explode.
I dont even really consider myself bi anymore. although i will describe myself as such out of sheer lazyness. (in similarity to the "goth" thing. no im not goth. but its the closest and easiest word applicable...)
-thoughts incomplete, you just called, so maybe ill finish comment later-
[Edited on Jan 13, 2003]