Possum lady is 32 YEARS OLD!!!!!
She totally didn't look like it in the pic she sent me. I thought she was maybe 24? Jesus Christ, does the woman slather herself in a vat of Oil of Olay daily? I knew there had to be a catch; I was waiting for the other shoe to drop. As my life metaphorically occurs at a Nike warehouse in an earthquake, it wasn't all that difficult.
There is no sex in the champagne room and I have grown aware of the fact that I am surrounded by 5,000 cases of champagne.
God. Guess I might as well just end up Natalie's bitch. I can't seem to meet anybody else, no matter where I go. I tried really hard to find someone else; it's been 7 months for fuck's sakes and I've already dated 3 girls after her. My typically strong willpower caves in when she writes me emails like the last one, where she said I was hot. It's funny that I can be so easy to get if you display primal, lusty interest in me. Maybe I do deserve to be treated like the slut I get treated as. Who cares if she's with Heather. Nice guys finish last.
The stupid thing is, I KNOW I deserve better.
But don't we all deserve nice things that we never get? And then settle for less?
I always had my code; I never went for anybody who was taken. I don't really give a fuck anymore. Every time in my life i've been with someone, another girl who's prettier or sexier or funnier has taken my lover and left me in the dust. Many women think a relationship with another woman would be more nurturing than one with a man. To tell you the truth, I think women are much more cruel than men. And 1,000 times more insane, crazy like foxes.
Karma's done a shit job of keeping score.
Let's go. Player 1 press start.
Some girl writes, "mon chere,
I hope you find love..I doubt online is the way to go..."
Yes, I doubt that too.
If not, then tell me where to go. But do not call me mon chere.
I am nobody's darling. Remember that, always.
You do not deserve to be treated badly. Period. Do NOT put up with that.
Not all "nice guys" finish last. The trick (or talent) is to have enough patience to last. Wait for what you know is right. Never settle. Accepting something that is good but imperfect is ok. Waiting for perfectionism is a doomed cause. Ain't none of us perfect.
Don't give up your code. Karmic debt is a strange one. The younger you are, the "bigger" your karmic circle is. It may be years before the things you do come back to you. When you get older, that circle becomes much smaller. My circle is about half what it was when I was 10 years younger.
You are AWESOME and I very much know that it is so very hard not to get discouraged. Hang in there! You will be\and will want to be someone's darling one day.