Hahaha....called Natalie tonight and she will call me back later, as she is out with her mother.
Why? I don't know why. I think we should talk. I'm tired of running on rage. I always trick myself into thinking that rage is a good thing, that if I get frenzied enough and kick open X amount of doors that the adrenaline will rush to my head and make the bad, bad things go away. or at least give me the power to fight them.
I don't want to be a hateful woman anymore. I'm tired of thinking about the bad things of her and I want to get everything resolved.
And...I want to know if she ever loved me. I don't know if any of you have ever had a circumstance where you've loved someone and at the end of the relationship, you weren't sure any of it was real, but at the same time you're absolutely sure? It's odd, I can't explain it.
I think at this point, both of us just need peace. She needs to be absolved of her sins, and I need a reason to stop hating.
Must be the fevers. Only the fevers could make me delirious enough to think like this.
I...miss her. God that sounds stupid!
Why? I don't know why. I think we should talk. I'm tired of running on rage. I always trick myself into thinking that rage is a good thing, that if I get frenzied enough and kick open X amount of doors that the adrenaline will rush to my head and make the bad, bad things go away. or at least give me the power to fight them.
I don't want to be a hateful woman anymore. I'm tired of thinking about the bad things of her and I want to get everything resolved.
And...I want to know if she ever loved me. I don't know if any of you have ever had a circumstance where you've loved someone and at the end of the relationship, you weren't sure any of it was real, but at the same time you're absolutely sure? It's odd, I can't explain it.
I think at this point, both of us just need peace. She needs to be absolved of her sins, and I need a reason to stop hating.
Must be the fevers. Only the fevers could make me delirious enough to think like this.
I...miss her. God that sounds stupid!
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to answer your question:
who i think the hottest FF girl is?
one clue, look at my name
actually they're all hot! i especially dig Lulu's style.
I hated her for a week, vowed I'd never speak to her again... but I needed to know.
I totally understand what you mean.