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Monday Nov 25, 2002

Nov 25, 2002
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Hahaha....called Natalie tonight and she will call me back later, as she is out with her mother.

Why? I don't know why. I think we should talk. I'm tired of running on rage. I always trick myself into thinking that rage is a good thing, that if I get frenzied enough and kick open X amount of doors that the adrenaline will rush to my head and make the bad, bad things go away. or at least give me the power to fight them.

I don't want to be a hateful woman anymore. I'm tired of thinking about the bad things of her and I want to get everything resolved.

And...I want to know if she ever loved me. I don't know if any of you have ever had a circumstance where you've loved someone and at the end of the relationship, you weren't sure any of it was real, but at the same time you're absolutely sure? It's odd, I can't explain it.

I think at this point, both of us just need peace. She needs to be absolved of her sins, and I need a reason to stop hating.

Must be the fevers. Only the fevers could make me delirious enough to think like this.

I...miss her. God that sounds stupid!
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edea:
i'll talk games with ya anytime. i don't know any girl-gamers either smile.

to answer your question:
who i think the hottest FF girl is?

one clue, look at my name wink

actually they're all hot! i especially dig Lulu's style.
Nov 25, 2002
crazydasaint:
The first girl I ever fell in love to actually return my affections... it ended rough. Not that we fought or anything. In fact we never fought. We never really talked about the big stuff... so I had no idea what was going through her head until she dumped me with no warning. Real rough.

I hated her for a week, vowed I'd never speak to her again... but I needed to know.

I totally understand what you mean.
Nov 25, 2002

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