A very long time ago you kissed me and I couldn't stop from shivering.
"What's wrong?" You asked.
"I touched someone once and they died. Sometimes now i'm afraid to touch people. I don't want to hurt them. Let's not talk about it." I said.
"Shh. Shh. You aren't hurting me. I don't want you to be afraid. Relax. Breathe. Stop shivering. I want you to be comfortable. Hold me. I will keep you warm."
Why don't things matter like that anymore?
I'll sleep now, rubbing the corner of my soft blanket against my cheek, trying to fight recurring memories like that one that haunts my dreams.
I miss you. Or maybe someone like you but better, that I never knew. That I want to know. That I don't hold my breath for any longer.
And I wait for you in a bed swarming with bees, black bees, buzzing bees, angry bees, searching for honey and finding only the bitterness of vinegar and salt and circumstance.
"What's wrong?" You asked.
"I touched someone once and they died. Sometimes now i'm afraid to touch people. I don't want to hurt them. Let's not talk about it." I said.
"Shh. Shh. You aren't hurting me. I don't want you to be afraid. Relax. Breathe. Stop shivering. I want you to be comfortable. Hold me. I will keep you warm."
Why don't things matter like that anymore?
I'll sleep now, rubbing the corner of my soft blanket against my cheek, trying to fight recurring memories like that one that haunts my dreams.
I miss you. Or maybe someone like you but better, that I never knew. That I want to know. That I don't hold my breath for any longer.
And I wait for you in a bed swarming with bees, black bees, buzzing bees, angry bees, searching for honey and finding only the bitterness of vinegar and salt and circumstance.
I got you a xmas present though! WOOWOO! That gives me an excuse to make time to see you before xmas. YAAY!!