I wish I was a boy. A strong, handsome boy. I could really impress a girl that way. She wouldn't be afraid to have a crush on me, it would be alright. It would be acceptable. I would be strong enough to carry her.
And I wish I was more gentle and less headstrong, less intense. I am too much fire and not enough warmth. Sometimes I am a stubborn bitch and I let pride get in the way of everything. Funny I should let pride get in the way of things when I can be so insecure.
I have the energy to charge at shadows and fight, but not the softness and consideration to have mercy when I should.
Maybe this is the lesson I should learn before anything else. And I think I will take some time to do a freewrite remembering all of the good things about the girls I have dated. I want to remember them in a nice way.
Oh by the way:Caution to the SF/Bay Area suicide girls
And I wish I was more gentle and less headstrong, less intense. I am too much fire and not enough warmth. Sometimes I am a stubborn bitch and I let pride get in the way of everything. Funny I should let pride get in the way of things when I can be so insecure.
I have the energy to charge at shadows and fight, but not the softness and consideration to have mercy when I should.
Maybe this is the lesson I should learn before anything else. And I think I will take some time to do a freewrite remembering all of the good things about the girls I have dated. I want to remember them in a nice way.
Oh by the way:Caution to the SF/Bay Area suicide girls
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dia:
I AM AWAKE... he just figured I didn't wanna talk to anyone... call again 
suiciety:
i would like to aplogize. the first time i talk to you i lie violently to your face. sorry. i was napping when you called so i wasn't very together. as i am sure you could tell due to my ramble dramble and inability to speak properly. none the less she is in fact home right now. so if you want to call back i will actually let you speak to her. hehe sorry.