bionicfemme

Since when did the SG community become so cruel? I don't remember the last time in my entire life I contemplated suicide so heavily and all I get are a bunch of members telling me my writing sucks and that I SHOULD go away. Hmm, maybe that's why the site is called SUICIDEgirls.

Hey thanks. I haven't, you know, been insulted my whole life or told to go away for most of it or anything.

I don't WANT to die. But I am running out of options to live. I don't care what anyone says; you do need someone, at least once in 21 years, to tell you that they love you and care about you and think you're special somehow. You do need to hear it every once in a while. I have been treated like fucking REFUSE my whole life, no matter how hard I try to change and be better for someone.

I'm not dumb and I know i'm not going to find anyone, ever. The same things keep happening and lately I can even predict them. Why, even in first grade, they teach you how to recognize and follow a pattern.

So basically if anyone else thinks it's funny to laugh at my suffering, please stay the FUCK out of my journal as I am just trying to find a reason to live.

We can't all be happy girls with happy boyfriends, can we?

Especially not when some of us come from under-privileged households with abusive parents and are GAY in a place where all gay women are bitchy, noncomittal, and define their sexuality by, well, how much sex they can have with other women.