bionicfemme

Everyone pushes me away.

You want me to go away?

I will FUCKING go away.

I hope I never fall in love again because it means absolutely nothing when I tell somebody that I love them, they punish me or throw away my words.

And you know me; I am a wordsmith and that word means a lot.

HA! Not one person in my life has loved me. Not one. I am twenty one years old.

I am not second place.

I am not a standby. I deserve better than this.

Don't patronize me like a goddamn puppy.

Want me.

If God could kill me, he would do the greatest favor the world has seen.

My dad once told me that when I was born, I was born in the middle of a thunderstorm because God was crying; he didn't want me to be born.

He was wrong.

The storm was because I was crying, because I didn't want to be born.