It's ok...the boo boos are healing and hurting less. Who can be sad about women when there is Final Fantasy Origins in the world, + well written lesbian erotica from Great Britain? 
Some girl on CL posted an ad looking for lesbian writers that want to join a writer's group...I am totally interested and nothing could be cooler than discussing this Bionic Femme story with a bunch of other gay women. I am trying to make it appeal to lesbians but also be accessible and human to straight people. I want heterosexuals to see that lesbians are neither mannish nor sex-obsessed porn sluts (although we all know all of the lesbians in San Francisco are both of these things but we won't go into that.)
One of the best compliments I got on Much Obliged was that someone said they had never read anything like that before because they were sheltered and it made them rethink completely about the types of women they thought lesbians were. My sense of purpose in writing has always been a sense of social responsibility to represent lesbians as we are, to make people rethink their categorizations of us. I just write about what happens in my life, how I interact with these women, and I keep it real. The two main things I like about my writing are 1) The energetic voice in it 2)Its honesty.
I think, by reading my writing, that straight men can see I very much have the same issues they do when dating women. "Why doesn't the nice guy ever win?" "How do I get girls to notice me?" "Why are girls so confusing, they say they want one thing but want something different" etc.
I think straight women can see that I have the same cravings for someone honest and romantic to sweep them off their feet that they do, like i'm on this journey to find "Mrs. Right" rather than "Mr. Right."
And I think lesbians (and bi girls) everywhere can roll their eyes and groan when they see all the shitty mishaps in dating that I go through, because nobody makes it out of the LGBT community alive without a lot of scratches and bruises from shitty lovers. Moreso I think than people in the straight community.
So I spoke with my mentor today, a 50 year old lesbian Romantic Period English Professor about life and love and writing. Talking to her makes me feel better about the world because she's been a lesbian for quite some time and knows her shit, both about being a lesbian and about writing. So when she tells me things will get better it gives me a little faith. I gave her some of my pieces to look over a long time ago and she told me today that I have a lot of talent as a writer because I keep experiences real and I make people feel like they're really there. We got to speaking about manipulation of form in work and I said it comes down to whether or not you're going to tell a good story that defines you as a writer, not manipulation of form. She told me that as long as I ignore the value of form in a story, I won't make progress as a novelist.
Actually, she might be right. I want to pull a little Joyce here and there but I am more concerned about touching people with my writing than making them decode it. That's why my chapbook has kidnap lettering on the cover. I feel like when I write, I kidnap you, and you like it.
There is this butchy bi girl in the English department that always displays how much she knows and how smart she is...I hope I kick her ass at the awards ceremony, I want to be better than her at something for once. I might not be as clever as she is, but I think i'm more artistic. Anyway, she is Cyclops and I am Wolverine.
Some girl on CL posted an ad looking for lesbian writers that want to join a writer's group...I am totally interested and nothing could be cooler than discussing this Bionic Femme story with a bunch of other gay women. I am trying to make it appeal to lesbians but also be accessible and human to straight people. I want heterosexuals to see that lesbians are neither mannish nor sex-obsessed porn sluts (although we all know all of the lesbians in San Francisco are both of these things but we won't go into that.)
One of the best compliments I got on Much Obliged was that someone said they had never read anything like that before because they were sheltered and it made them rethink completely about the types of women they thought lesbians were. My sense of purpose in writing has always been a sense of social responsibility to represent lesbians as we are, to make people rethink their categorizations of us. I just write about what happens in my life, how I interact with these women, and I keep it real. The two main things I like about my writing are 1) The energetic voice in it 2)Its honesty.
I think, by reading my writing, that straight men can see I very much have the same issues they do when dating women. "Why doesn't the nice guy ever win?" "How do I get girls to notice me?" "Why are girls so confusing, they say they want one thing but want something different" etc.
I think straight women can see that I have the same cravings for someone honest and romantic to sweep them off their feet that they do, like i'm on this journey to find "Mrs. Right" rather than "Mr. Right."
And I think lesbians (and bi girls) everywhere can roll their eyes and groan when they see all the shitty mishaps in dating that I go through, because nobody makes it out of the LGBT community alive without a lot of scratches and bruises from shitty lovers. Moreso I think than people in the straight community.
So I spoke with my mentor today, a 50 year old lesbian Romantic Period English Professor about life and love and writing. Talking to her makes me feel better about the world because she's been a lesbian for quite some time and knows her shit, both about being a lesbian and about writing. So when she tells me things will get better it gives me a little faith. I gave her some of my pieces to look over a long time ago and she told me today that I have a lot of talent as a writer because I keep experiences real and I make people feel like they're really there. We got to speaking about manipulation of form in work and I said it comes down to whether or not you're going to tell a good story that defines you as a writer, not manipulation of form. She told me that as long as I ignore the value of form in a story, I won't make progress as a novelist.
Actually, she might be right. I want to pull a little Joyce here and there but I am more concerned about touching people with my writing than making them decode it. That's why my chapbook has kidnap lettering on the cover. I feel like when I write, I kidnap you, and you like it.
There is this butchy bi girl in the English department that always displays how much she knows and how smart she is...I hope I kick her ass at the awards ceremony, I want to be better than her at something for once. I might not be as clever as she is, but I think i'm more artistic. Anyway, she is Cyclops and I am Wolverine.
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minsc_and_boo:
when will someone actually kidnap me?
onefoolishline:
i feel much better now that i've slept....i was on a one way track to my bed last night. could hardly stand when i got in. but i only got 3 hours so i'm going to take a bit of a nap today and then do some work. call me if you want to go to the department thing tonight.
