binzzi

These days I find out that yas is 16 December already, and the date for my set be in member review approaches, and anxiety has shot me, I feel like a complete teenager hoping to have 18, I pass through a lot f things to be able to made those photos, but I was not the only one, then you go back to had 16 , and remember when you saw that magazine with beautiful @zeta and @Sally , and you realized that there was a unique world like Suicide Girls. And since that day you decide you want to do with a part of it. It may sounds silly, but I really want to become a pink lady, and I have been waiting long time for this moment. A lot of insecurities come into my head, and the idea of staying as hopeful for long make me scared, because that's makes me think that I'm not good enough to be pink girl, I like to think I'm not the only one who had pass thought that, but you also see really beautiful girls who have been as hopeful for long time, girls who haven't been luky, so I think if they have not been selected why would I? I 'm not really that beautiful, and my head starts to spin, then I breath slowly and calm myself, then I think that all is going to be OK, and that this is just another step to achive my life goals, and that I must keep fighting for it.