binx

someday when i see myself
ill forget the ridicule ive felt
and remember a childlike happiness that is
loving laughing without reason
death right now i see as freedom
from this pain this stupid realization
lies and lonliness
that i've caused myself to feel
for the hearts ive toyed and melt
this is what ive done to myself
i want to be free from love's vicious trap
alternativly to be alone
ill thrive that way perhaps

what should i expect to have?
the one or more that responds to words
words i said to simply trap
to fill teh void with many lies
empty hearts to pass the time
denying them all of me
and loosing in turn many parts of me
crawling forward with painful expectation
and be surprised by what i find in pain
numb the lose with love so false
and drain my body of blood