I keep winding up in situations where I have to communicate with the people I work with, which is often a difficult thing for me to do.
I'll bite words in half while I try to figure out if the person I'm talking to can follow what I'm saying, because half the time I'm not sure how I started the sentence. It certainly doesn't help that it takes a LONG time to pick simple descriptive words out of my head - lord knows there are lots of 'em - and it feels like I've got weights on my lips as I try to rattle them out in bursts of 9 or 10 at a time.
It used to be worse, I suppose... on occasion I would say something in the midst of a conversation with several people that seemed perfectly appropriate to me that would kind of make people act the way they do around my schizophrenic uncle when he starts freestyling with reality. Sometimes I'd find something funny and make a quip that would be blatantly asshole-ish. Twice I made someone cry without realizing it.
I've always identified a great deal with Holden Caulfield - probably why I've never blogged before. It always seemed overly self-indulgent to me; unless you consider most aspie blogs, which are typically technical manuals of some sort. Three times I've written blogs that I've deleted before posting because they were basically 'how to' articles in development best practices. Not necessarily a bad thing, but I've such an obvious problem writing anything the least bit personal... I reckon I had to learn how to speak like a human being through deliberate practice, trial and error; the same probably goes for writing like one.
I'll bite words in half while I try to figure out if the person I'm talking to can follow what I'm saying, because half the time I'm not sure how I started the sentence. It certainly doesn't help that it takes a LONG time to pick simple descriptive words out of my head - lord knows there are lots of 'em - and it feels like I've got weights on my lips as I try to rattle them out in bursts of 9 or 10 at a time.
It used to be worse, I suppose... on occasion I would say something in the midst of a conversation with several people that seemed perfectly appropriate to me that would kind of make people act the way they do around my schizophrenic uncle when he starts freestyling with reality. Sometimes I'd find something funny and make a quip that would be blatantly asshole-ish. Twice I made someone cry without realizing it.
I've always identified a great deal with Holden Caulfield - probably why I've never blogged before. It always seemed overly self-indulgent to me; unless you consider most aspie blogs, which are typically technical manuals of some sort. Three times I've written blogs that I've deleted before posting because they were basically 'how to' articles in development best practices. Not necessarily a bad thing, but I've such an obvious problem writing anything the least bit personal... I reckon I had to learn how to speak like a human being through deliberate practice, trial and error; the same probably goes for writing like one.
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It's also very hard for me to follow how we fit together so nicely when I freestyle with reality in all my convos, I guess that kind of makes us simliar yet so different.
But it works, and that's all that matters.
I have a dear philosophy professor friend who said "There seems to be very little difference between being an academic and having aspergers. In fact, there seems to be very little difference between being MALE and having aspergers."
SO when I say weird non-sequitors that are funny to me but can silence a room, what defense can I use?
ANyway, I thought you were charming, smart, and nice. Nice to meet you and wifey
p.s. blogs are only self-indulgent if you do them daily, and like, write abt bathing and eating...