binaryfiendsgone

i like db and i LOVE panacea

Sorry you got stood up. That steeenks!
You can be my slave, for sure.
But you look so much like an ex-boyfriend...

How about that AND we can get one member of choice too...tehehe

*laughs* this could get outta hand! How about that AND they get hijacked and personally delivered to your door?

i think you're reading it right. the guy that i'm totally in love with is also stand offish, but more so like he controls his emotions so that things are the way that he thinks they rationally should be. so i invested all this emotion and he felt the same thing, but then decided the distance between us was crazy and just shut it all off, like that. it was just really confusing to me and i felt kind of jerked because i did invest all that feeling and i couldn't make it go away like he could.

so yea, if you think what you think, go with it, sounds pretty honest {with yourself} to me.

good call inez...
binary, it does sound like you have a good idea of what you want, and i think it's an admirable quality to settle for nothing less... besides, i hardly think you'll have any trouble meeting new people

laughs bemused, sum FINALLY gets that you were posting individual messages to ppl in your journal ... for some reason i thought you had copied a conversation thread, nevermind me *sighs* !

btw i can't think of a cuter pair of pets, imagine them trotting along together!

According to sumgirl, you and I are engaged in a who has the most friends contest. I wasn't even aware that we were opponents!! Her and Lainy think that having lotsa friends is some sorta measure of popularity. Huh?!

i want the old one back. this one cant touch that one yo.

oh shit i'm so delirious i didn't even notice it was new..very nice but still not the best

heyyy, good lookin'...what you got cookin'...

just felt the need to say that. oh, i'm renting donnie darko this weekend!

oh man i hate you...it seems i'm always dealing with something similar. would explain except it would be as long as this. i'm a sucka, did you get my email about why i punked and didn't call?

oh, and it is my firm belief that if two poor people procreate they would then make a postive and create a filthy rich child.

hello

So lets see, I had a great weekend. It was like a vacation. I worked Friday and Saturday but had Sunday off and few of my friends and I headed to the B-Boy competition in LA. All I have to say about that is O MA GOD. I saw some things that I didnt think were humanly possible. Each area of the venue was dedicated to a different style of dance for the most part. There was one lounge are for all the dancers to warm up and practice. Then there was a funk room for all the poppers. There was a main stage for the actual competition and then surrounding that was a few other circles that crews were practicing in. Outside there was another dance floor where most of the old schoolers were showing off. All in all the vibe was friendly and warm except for the few arrogant guys. I am just really excited cause I was starting to dance less and less and I felt like maybe it was time to give up b-boying but after this weekend I am just soo pumped about it again. I feel like I can probably get back to where I was before as far as my skill goes. I used to be a really good dancer for a while there.

So that was one great thing that happened this weekend. The next cool thing was that I met a girl that is really into me. I dont know her to well yet but she seems cool and I am just excited about getting to know her a little better. She is best friends with on of my friends that I have a lot of respect for so that in itself speaks quite a bit about her.

Besides that I just spent all yesterday relaxing on the beach and smoking greenery a bit It was so like a vacation. I just laid in the sun listening to music and enjoying the breezeaww talk about relaxation.

The reason I say life can change so fast is cause just before all this I was still fighting thoughts involving my ex. Along with that I had just been in a funk. I didnt want to talk with my ex or have anything to do with her BUT she was still on my mind and was a constant source of frustration. After this weekend, I just felt like geez there are so many things I am limiting myself in because I am too depressed to really taste life. After seening the b-boy competition, I am just so hungry for life again. I want to excel at things. I want to go out and try new things. I dont feel so down on myself anymore. My self-image had improved. I really dont know what happened to me. Its like I finally just snapped.Hopefully this can be sustained..

i am so excited for you!!! it's nice to realize new things about yourself...that make you see things for how they really are..and it seems that you are definately seeing life and getting through this...

muah to you hunny...muah to you!

bah. i hate you. i always read about the bboy summit and want to go,

ok it's 3 am and i've had lots of stoli so sleep is beckoning. have fun