Have you ever had that feeling like you are just too strange of a person even to open minded people? I get that feeling a lot and then my mind says no no no there are plenty of people out there. I am starting to think that I am just too fucked up or something. My art is rarely grasped well by viewers and even though they can appreciate the skill involved the images always seem to be a bit too much for them. Maybe my art just sucks. I rarely find anyone at all that likes the variety of music that I enjoy and I often just feel like I have very few people that I can geek out with on certain topics like art, music, science, computers, etc.. Maybe I just enjoy too many things and most people tend to stick to only a few and look down on the rest. Well I dont look down on anything. Why should I be the freak? I am just lonely and since I do enjoy so many things it is hard to find similar people (women to be more specific) that dont judge me automatically because I have baggy pants, or because my head is shaved, or cause I have broken teeth. I hate it when people see one thing in me and put me in a category. I feel this is a major barrier. I am the type of person that can connect with people from all different backgrounds but rarely will people come up to me because of prejudgment. It is enough to make a boy want to sit in a dark corner.

Yeah I knowboohoo

Dont mind me.. I just watched Donnie Darko for the third time and there is a part where Gretchen says that Donnie is weird. Then he says sorry and she is like No, that was a compliment. I am really sappy when it comes to these non-standard love scenarios and I guess I just wish some one loved/appreciated me for me. In my last relationship I felt like I had to tone myself down for the girl to be happy with me. It was quite stifling and not something I want to do again. I just know if some girl gave me that compliment I would probably be all about her.