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Tuesday Sep 10, 2002

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FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!! How the hell am I supposed to work when I am soo fucking tired that I can even seem to get inspired by anything. I really do need something to inspire me. Every thing/one that usually inspires me is/are too far away from me. I have very few people in my life that are creative on a very consistent basis and it pains me to be soo fn isolated. I need to fall in with a group of rebel street designershaha Yeah righthaha Sides its like you cant make designer friends because everybody is out to fucking prove something. Like,O youre an artist/designer, Well I work here and here and here and with this person and Im just WAY WAY cooler than you!! Why cant people just work together instead of competing at everything? I guess some people dont feel secure unless the can tell themselves that they are better than everyone else. I wish I could find some like minded souls that just want to foster creativity for the sake of creativity. I wish I could meet some artists that are driven to work as hard as I do or rather usually do. People that want to make new things. People that live art and want to make it there lives. To be quite honest I do know a few but they all live far away from me so I cant really bounce ideas or learn from them like I could if they were here. Maybe I just need to thrust myself into some fucked up situations so as to create inspired works. It always worked in the past. Maybe I am just becoming to sane and I am loosing my fire.hahaha Ok we all know I am just as crazy as always. I need a muse. A person to worship. A person to pleaseSounds pathetic huh? Thats the old me talking. Mr. Need a Woman to be Happy. But I dont. I just need some friends to feed off of. I just need to wake up. All I want to do is be my normal self and get to work. I have things to do but I cant seem to get my mind in check. Maybe I just need to watch a little more Japanese animation and dream about laying next to Lisa. Awww she always makes me feel better. I am sure if we were close I would be able to createsnap Double Snap! Only 2 people in this world understand me from the inside out. One is Lisa and the other is Starli. Both inspire me but without a trace of their real essence they are just too far to help pull me out of this funk that I cant seem to shake myself out of. Maybe I just need some rest and love. Both seem out of my reach..

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Update: I managed to get a little work done. I just finished the first draft of the Tipton Guitars web page. I am still waiting on the information from my client. I have some really cool ideas for the gallery and information pages. I plan to use some disjointed roll-overs for zooming effects in the gallery page and I also plan to use them to show the different models on the information page. Once I am done it should be a minimal but styling site. The point of this site is to get information across and get people in contact with the maker. I think it will accomplish that as long as it is advertised well.

Tipton Guitars - http://www.binaryfiend.com/tg

What do you think?

P.S. Sorry for the angry ranting...
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suoda:
I know exactly how you feel. I am a musician who lacks the creative force I need to produce. Most musicians have some sort of ego thing going on as well as artists. Everything would be much freer and creative if creative minds work together to produce shit. I am not out to prove anything, I simply love music and find my soul in it. I am also an amateur film-maker and photographer, so give me a shout if you are ever stuck in an inspiration rutt.
Sep 10, 2002
aster:
hi there...yeah, i've been ranting too. sigh sigh sigh. running away is good. i want to make two trips next year, if my boss will let me. the first trip may be to fiji and new zealand to visit a friend. the second one may be to hong kong, singapore, and japan. maybe that will satisfy me...for a while.

my friends have all moved away too...at first it was a trickle, but now they're all suddenly gone. 3 of them left last week and one more this thursday. it's lonely here!

i'm going to look at your site now.
Sep 10, 2002

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