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Saturday Jul 08, 2006

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If you're familiar with the goings-on at the old Billy Fivecrows house, you'll know that I've been living with my momz, helping her through some major surgeries. She's all better now, physically, but we've met some tough times financially. We've had to resort to government help, foodstamps and all of that. It's not so bad... they're helping me with education offers (I'll be studying Reflexology at a school nearby... they let you choose your classes) and I've been doing volunteer work a few hours a week at the DFACS center.

Not a bad deal, all around. Sure beats nothing!

Anyhoo... we've had to stay at my grandmothers house for a long while. My grandmother has been living with her oldest daughter while we've been here. She got sick a year and a half ago, and they took her in.

Well, that situation blew up and changed over night, and my grandmother is coming to live with us in her house.

It's a very, very small bungalow with three households worth of stuff crammed into it: mine, my grandmothers and my moms. Her old bedroom is now a moldy storage room, and we have until tomorrow to clean it out and get it ready for her to live here.

To top it all off, it's been seriously emotional. Lots of old anger and resentment; open, stinging wounds in everyone's hearts that have never healed. Lots of tears and anger, fights and threats. It's been a mess.

We've all worked through our emotions now, and are somewhat at peace, but the work is to be done.

I might not be around much for a day or so, or three. I'll check in from time to time, to see what's up.


This has been going on for about four of five days now, so that's why my personal communications have been so approximate and erratic.

I'm sorry guys, it's just a testing time.

I love you all, and will be back soon.

Namaste

-b.

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vervain______:
thank you. i hope you are doing well.
love.
Jul 11, 2006
huck:
i am very sure you will overcome all of this... tho "overcome" is not the right word; i'm sure you are not so pugnacious in your family life... doh! i have a big family and the politics are never-ending, so just thinking about this kinda stuff gives me a headache. just...good luck! (especially with the moldy room.)
Jul 11, 2006

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