billybillybilly

SO!

Valentine's day? Valentines day? Something like that, and midnight hit and there it was. Like some kind of bright light shone upon me and mine eyes were blinded which allowed me to TRULY see the wonderful magnificence of life and its many facets. Like a big-ass diamond that...

Something.

"Everything I ever did,
and everything I ever said,
is gone and dead.

"My life
has been
extraordinary.

"Time heals, but I'm forever broken. By and by the way...
Have you ever heard the words, I'm singing in these songs?
It's for the girl, I've loved all along.
Can a taste of love be so wrong?

(excerps from Muzzle, Smashing Pumpkins)

Those lyrics just seem appropriate right now. And to answer Mr. Billy (Corgan), YES. A taste of love can be that wrong. Not that you didn't see it coming though. You buy the ticket and you take the ride and you knew what was coming.

Didn't you?

I'm getting better. So maybe this Valentine's day won't be as bad as I expected. Could be worse than I expect though too, time will tell. At least I have this:

I've started out this Valentine's day with friends, and the next and most important thing I'm going to do is sleep, and after that I'll go to work and I'll do my job and there's a comfort in that too. Then I'm going to attempt to get plowed because I won't have to work the next day. There's a comfort in that too. Perhaps I'll end Valentine's day in the bathroom purging my recent pass in the most physical of artforms.

Get it all out.

Take a walk.

Scream at a tree.

Kick a snowman in the junk.

The possibilities are endless.