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UPDATE: wednesday, 2:04am - you can understand that i went to sleep happy.

okay. so.

got all my hair chopped off.
shaved the face.
got a new coat.
feelin' like a million bucks.
gonna be smashed.
gonna go to work on thursday.
gonna rock a world or three.

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on a note completely unrelated, i'm giving all i can to be patient, but on a completely related note, i needed to make some changes.

i've been scared a lot lately.
i've been down a lot lately.
i've been up and down and up and down a lot lately.
i've been indecisive.
i've been far too decisive, and i've reacted harshly.
i've been sorry for certain things.
i've been sorry for myself, for things i can't control.
i've been doing all i can to give myself the perspective i need on my life.

i need a vacation.
i need a better paying job.
i need to find a new apartment by march 1st.
i need to be up for all of these things.
i need to stop worrying about how everybody "feels" (myself included) all the time.

but most of all, more important than anything at all whatsoever in my life at this moment or any moment before this, on my end of things, for whatever i can do, i need to make things right.

if i have to wait to do that, i will. if i have to go through more of the same, i will.

change was necessary.

round 2.