Update, Monday, 10:40 - Binge Count, 5 nights. Last night and the night before were spent mostly in oblivion. Fucking lovely.
Not out of the woods yet. If anyone wants to know what happens if you drop off a waterfall, I'll tell you. What happens, in fact, is you fall straight down, down and down, and you fall farther and faster and straight into the rabbit hole.
Alice was a confused little girl.
Shot through the looking-glass, but I'm searching for the end of a rainbow.
(song: Hysteria [by Muse, off the album Absolution])
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Update, Saturday, 4:30 - It is entirely possible that I won't be around much in the coming week. I have a lot of thinking to do, I'd prefer if no one worried, but even I'm a little worried.
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in the dream
i walk into new york and i'm at a party. everyone, not my friends, but those kids i graduated with, they're all grown into post-college bodies and they look at me like they're glad i've arrived. the boys nod and the girls smile and one of the twins, the less attractive one, dances me around the room.
we fall to the floor and the room is empty and my hand is on her chest and she's breathing big passified sighs. she looked so peaceful, but i can't stay, and in that
i get up and walk out. i rent a car, and i go to his house. it feels so trapped inside and i look around, but i'm too tired so i go to sleep. wake up in my boxers when i hear voices and i see a topless girl run out of the room i assume is the bedroom, and i'd know that back anywhere.
she sits down on the floor, i glimpse that motion, get up and walk slowly toward her.
there is a puff of smoke that rises in front of her, her back to me, as i turn the corner toward the wall and she's got a bra on now and she's finishing putting on pajamas as the smoke trails slow fingers in front of an inner door.
turning around she smiles instinctively, noticing it's me she grimaces and growls, "why are you here?"
"i'm taking you with me. i have a car waiting outside. i came a long way for this and i'm not leaving without you."
she looks once, dead in my eyes, frowns and falls over.
she starts to moan and her face is contorted and i shake her and fade out, but she doesn't respond and she tightens her eyelids and
Back in real life the last image, and seeing her like that shook me, woke me up, and it appeared I had a new message on my phone.
It's official, and I do believe my life is about to change.
Not out of the woods yet. If anyone wants to know what happens if you drop off a waterfall, I'll tell you. What happens, in fact, is you fall straight down, down and down, and you fall farther and faster and straight into the rabbit hole.
Alice was a confused little girl.
Shot through the looking-glass, but I'm searching for the end of a rainbow.
(song: Hysteria [by Muse, off the album Absolution])
* * * * *
Update, Saturday, 4:30 - It is entirely possible that I won't be around much in the coming week. I have a lot of thinking to do, I'd prefer if no one worried, but even I'm a little worried.
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in the dream
i walk into new york and i'm at a party. everyone, not my friends, but those kids i graduated with, they're all grown into post-college bodies and they look at me like they're glad i've arrived. the boys nod and the girls smile and one of the twins, the less attractive one, dances me around the room.
we fall to the floor and the room is empty and my hand is on her chest and she's breathing big passified sighs. she looked so peaceful, but i can't stay, and in that
i get up and walk out. i rent a car, and i go to his house. it feels so trapped inside and i look around, but i'm too tired so i go to sleep. wake up in my boxers when i hear voices and i see a topless girl run out of the room i assume is the bedroom, and i'd know that back anywhere.
she sits down on the floor, i glimpse that motion, get up and walk slowly toward her.
there is a puff of smoke that rises in front of her, her back to me, as i turn the corner toward the wall and she's got a bra on now and she's finishing putting on pajamas as the smoke trails slow fingers in front of an inner door.
turning around she smiles instinctively, noticing it's me she grimaces and growls, "why are you here?"
"i'm taking you with me. i have a car waiting outside. i came a long way for this and i'm not leaving without you."
she looks once, dead in my eyes, frowns and falls over.
she starts to moan and her face is contorted and i shake her and fade out, but she doesn't respond and she tightens her eyelids and
Back in real life the last image, and seeing her like that shook me, woke me up, and it appeared I had a new message on my phone.
It's official, and I do believe my life is about to change.
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i missed the movie saturday night, because i fell alseep. i'm sad i missed out on meeting some of you guys. hope you all had fun though.