The best relationships I've ever not had
...what an accurate title. Sitting here realising that I've been adding to the following list lately. Pretty much sick of it. Thinking that perhaps I just need to be a bit suicidal about my inability to discuss what's really going on with me in relationships, well, actually friendships. Take the plunge billy. Down the avenue, not across the street.
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The following are the highlights from my life of relationships I haven't had that I'll always look back on fondly, some that I'll always wonder 'what if...'
Shayna
...was the first girl I ever developed a crush on. I must have been about four years old, having just moved into a new house. She was my girl next door. Across the street and down the block actually. This is probably the most typical scenario for attraction I've ever been in. She was beautiful, my age, and fun to be with. It never took off, this was the beginning of all those stupid starry nights looking out my window and breathing night air waiting for something, anything to happen.
Kelsey
...and even her fucking PARENTS tried to hook us up. Such high hopes. Formulated and spoon fed to be the penultimate 'one that got away'. So many times I could've told her what was going on in my head. Never did get balls to do the necessary.
Things with her changed. Things with me stayed pretty much the same. She started going to a different school, missed her all the time. She was the one that no one else could compare to. Then we both moved out of town, she snubbed me, got married, got pregnant, had a miscarriage, fell apart, and I can barely remember what she looked like. I can't remember who she was. Maybe I never knew.
Must have been 10 years or more that I had all these mooshy gross feelings for her.
Jana
...the tomboy. It's actually laughable how much I liked this girl. She liked to hurt me. Physically. She even hurt my feelings once. It was awesome because then I had some gravity in the situation.
Yeah...that never panned out.
Andrea
Of all the relationships listed herein and all the ones that aren't, none have ever come as close as this one did to actually happening. It's weird that I can actually pinpoint a single moment that was the axis of this relationship's non-existence.
She was one of the most interesting and well put-together people I've come in contact with. Then she flaked out on me. That fucker. How dare she??? Hehehe....
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So come on kids, let's have it out. Gimme a shot. Give me your 'one that got away' story. I want to know, stuff like this is entertaining. To me at least, maybe not to you, and in that case I've wasted your time, but here I sit with my fingers crossed...
While you're at it, one last thing I'll need from you should you choose to reply (and I can hear the replies already, all of them a bit different), is to answer yet another question.
Is it worth being destroyed in your friendships over and over if you can't be with someone, or is it better to let all be known and cut them off?
...what an accurate title. Sitting here realising that I've been adding to the following list lately. Pretty much sick of it. Thinking that perhaps I just need to be a bit suicidal about my inability to discuss what's really going on with me in relationships, well, actually friendships. Take the plunge billy. Down the avenue, not across the street.
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The following are the highlights from my life of relationships I haven't had that I'll always look back on fondly, some that I'll always wonder 'what if...'
Shayna
...was the first girl I ever developed a crush on. I must have been about four years old, having just moved into a new house. She was my girl next door. Across the street and down the block actually. This is probably the most typical scenario for attraction I've ever been in. She was beautiful, my age, and fun to be with. It never took off, this was the beginning of all those stupid starry nights looking out my window and breathing night air waiting for something, anything to happen.
Kelsey
...and even her fucking PARENTS tried to hook us up. Such high hopes. Formulated and spoon fed to be the penultimate 'one that got away'. So many times I could've told her what was going on in my head. Never did get balls to do the necessary.
Things with her changed. Things with me stayed pretty much the same. She started going to a different school, missed her all the time. She was the one that no one else could compare to. Then we both moved out of town, she snubbed me, got married, got pregnant, had a miscarriage, fell apart, and I can barely remember what she looked like. I can't remember who she was. Maybe I never knew.
Must have been 10 years or more that I had all these mooshy gross feelings for her.
Jana
...the tomboy. It's actually laughable how much I liked this girl. She liked to hurt me. Physically. She even hurt my feelings once. It was awesome because then I had some gravity in the situation.
Yeah...that never panned out.
Andrea
Of all the relationships listed herein and all the ones that aren't, none have ever come as close as this one did to actually happening. It's weird that I can actually pinpoint a single moment that was the axis of this relationship's non-existence.
She was one of the most interesting and well put-together people I've come in contact with. Then she flaked out on me. That fucker. How dare she??? Hehehe....
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So come on kids, let's have it out. Gimme a shot. Give me your 'one that got away' story. I want to know, stuff like this is entertaining. To me at least, maybe not to you, and in that case I've wasted your time, but here I sit with my fingers crossed...
While you're at it, one last thing I'll need from you should you choose to reply (and I can hear the replies already, all of them a bit different), is to answer yet another question.
Is it worth being destroyed in your friendships over and over if you can't be with someone, or is it better to let all be known and cut them off?
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that's just a random chicken.
Two to be exact. Second one was about 2 1/2 years. She was not the one, we tricked ourselves. First one I was a senior in HS, I remember we were total opposites, I smoked herb and consumed numerous other mind altering agents, she was good to her parents, religious, and academic. I remember she bought me a stuffed penguine once because iI told her I really like penguines because they look funny when they waddle. It's weird sometimes opposites attract because you are so curious about a world you have never been apart of, and when love brings that together, and you feel good about it and keep an open mind well, I dunno I thought she was really cool and we were in love and I fucked it up. I know she was the one in my lifetime out of all the others that might have been, I still got that damn penguine in a box somewhere, shit that was ten years ago, is that weird?