billybeer

Nothing exiting today, I slept till 430 in the afternoon. Busted open the mailbox so I could get my mail. The hard part was figuring out how to try and close it. But I eventually did. Someone lost the mailbox in our place, and noons has any idea where it could be, so we havent been able to get our mail. We have to replace the lock since the stupid fucking landlord dosent have a spare. But I couldnt figure out how to get the fucking thing off... Oh well.

Went to see a doctor about my panic disorder yesterday. They gave me some pills. I hope they start to work, cause my anxiety is completely out of comtrol. We'll see.

I'm really getting sick of my life being so monotonous. I used to be such a free spirited, spontaneous person, because thats the only way for me to enjoy my life. (Lets call her... She) said to me last night,"Where hapiness lies, it should be grasped." and I can't think of truer words. And You can't look for happiness, plan to find it, itll never be where you think its gonna be. Spontenaety is the only way to find hapiness. I dunno. Well I stil havent found it. Or maybe I have...

Other than that, nothing sreally happening.Theres a party here at my house tomorrow night for my roomates 29th birthday. That should be fun. I;m not sure if i am going to liek some of their friends, but, again, We'll see. You cant worry about the future, you just have to wait to see what happens and deal with the situation should won arise. That;s how ive been tryin gto live lately.