billthebutcher

i want some fuckin money. i dont care if it sounds shallow or materialistic. i dont have any friends in los angeles, so my happiness is determined by my wallet right now. if i was home i could be happy being broke, but the shit dont work here. this is a bad place to want to be rich and only be surviving by the hands...
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at least the weekend is here. i dont have shit to do though. i am worthless sometimes.shit.i gotta get the fuck out and find myself some action.im not talking about sex action, though that might be nice too, but i just need somthing to do cuz i know theres alot out here. tommorrow is randys donuts day. thats a real big thing to look foward...
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i was visiting a friend and she was sharing a duplex house that shared a garage. in the garage we could get on the roof. a stray dog lived there. there was a huge spider that jumped out at us. i was spraying it with WD40. it would run away, then come back. i would spary it. after that i had to spary the dog...
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i want to go home. the more i sit here and ponder what i could do here or what i could do at home, the more i wish i just had something in my life to make a descision for me. i can do things in LA that i obviously cant do in columbus, but my life is in columbus. that is where my friends...
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must think of something to type must think of something to type i write on this thing daily now, i don tknopw if anybody reads them, but it is a way for me to think that maybe i am communicating with someone other than the yahoos i work with. i am here so often i think if i cant really find a supplemental job that...
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starting off my week as usual. today while in the park thought of how my halloween party is gonna be when i win the lottery. this mornings dream was this: i went to a vacation spot with my family to some jungle like foreign country. i walked over to some people fishing with spears, i was attracted to these people cuz they were either naked,...
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In the big scheme of things, does it really matter? Am I making a big enough contribution for society to care or notice? Sure, there would be they few 10-12 people who would be genuinly sad and feel like theyve lost somthing, but how long would it take for them to get over it and smile again? a few days, a few weeks? Life would...
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im sick of masterbation. i still do that shit, but i would much rather be with someone else. i went so long without having to look for other people to have sex with because we were so happy together. since i never had to "play the field" so I have no clue on what the fuck im doing. i spent so long not considering other...
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prozac nation is supposed to come out today, but who knows. i read in a interview that christina ricci was talking to some guy ina bar and mentioned that she just finished a movie based on the book prozac nation. He replied that he doesnt read books. Ricci said that from then the conversation was over, and this guy was an idiot. i sat there...
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my dream- she talked on the phone, and i could hear the pain in her voice. I asked what was the matter, and she said that she wanted to talked about it. i stroked her hair and watched her eyes water. the whole time i was thinking of her saying that she didnt want me anymore, about the time i asked if her decision was...
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theres a chance that i will be going home for a couple days on august. my plan is to fly home with my man thats coming for a visit, then drive home with my other dude who is driving to LA. hope the plans work out, im ready to get home for a few. nahmean? i hope that i can see someone at home that...
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another day too long to be here. i wish today i didnt feel like i just want to go home and get out of los angeles. i am not having fun here right now, and im not getting anything accomplished working for free 12 hours a day. i can work for free in ohio. and people tell me, its all for the music. well yiu...
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