bigwobbles

I had an ok New Years... hung out at a friends house with his wife ... nothing big . i got the feeling that that I was unwanted guest ... I havnt been in the best frame of mind. I get this everyn New years thinking that Im older and its one less year I have to have a shot at a good life a good job and a girl friend. I was at a Bar today at south street for a burger about thrirty people piled in from the Mummers day parade haveing a good time laughing and carrying on. I almost broke down it was all i could to pay the bill and not run out of the joint in tears.

I know this probaly a depressing winning pattern to my journals but this is what i feel; so thios is what I type... thanks for putting up with me and I hope every one else had a good New Years..

P.s Im a little Happier I just got myy Tickets for January 14th at the Tla for Imogene Heap (the chick in the group Frou Frou that did that song on the Garden State track Beauty in hte Break Down) the warm up act is Zoe Keating from Rasputine ... so I atleast have a reason not to off my self til January 14..