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Well Kids I have been away for awhile but not without merit. I met a girly and she has kinda occupied my computer time. My comp has let me know that she is jealous and will take no part in sharing me with my new girly. So now I am living two lives, one where I am enclosed and in this room with my computer. Just the two of us and all that we can explore. Then there is my world where I am amongst the analogue. All the senses are active and the fibers are felt with understanding. A face to look at and a face that looks back. Some one who listens and hopefully understands. ......... My girly works in medical profession. So that helps out on my medical fetish thingy. Plus her office has all kinds of fun gadgets and toys to play with. Not to mention she is kinda cool to.

so now an update. I got new meds to take now. So not only am I useless in society, it turns out I am going crazy as well. So look up in your nearest clock tower and I will be there. I bought some new CDs. Some of the CDs I have not heard yet and some of them where like old Metallica where I am still replacing old cassettes that I owned to CD. ( for those of you that do not know a cassette is what people from the late twentieth century used as a storage mechanism for music or vocal data. These cassettes, or tapes, where then listened to on cassette players or in some cases "boom boxes." This platform for music was used in the eighties, and into the early nineties, until the CD format was introduced ) Other then that I have been hangin about with my new girly and going to see new doctors and therapist and what not. I enrolled for school. I am going to get my learn on. I am taking multimedia courses to pursue my job as a video analyst for the feds. If I don't get that job I want a degree so diverse that hopefully I can land another gig doing something else. Maybe be a big time producer or director. Who knows. I just think and believe I am creative and I was put here for a purpose. I was built for more then just a factory drone. I am supposed to transcend and lead. Create and make a name for myself. I have just not found the motivation or the proper inspiration. I believe I am to be something. Who knows. As long as you people still love me then that is okay I suppose. So much more has happened to me but I must go. I am due at a family affair in a few minutes or so.