bigwhelturnsmal

The following entry may contain bullshit or lame excuses.







So okay Lat night came and went I again I did not go out. I do not know what it about Knoxville I just don't wanna go out anymore. When I lived in ATL I stayed out. Different clubs different nights or just walking the city street or riding MARTA till they told me to go home. When I went up to Canada I stayed out up there to so I am convinced it is not a social problem. I don't hate people I just hate these people. No to go out in Knoxville it becomes a chore. You have to drive there for starters. Then to show up you can not drink much because you have to drive home. No getting drunk and stumbling to a cab, no leaving the car walking home and then getting it in the morning. So going to Knoxville becomes a plan and after all that you look in the Liquor cabinet and say fuck it just get drunk here and call it a night. I have yet to go out in Knoxville and have fun. Not since the Mercury Theater has left us. Every time I made the effort to go out to the Mercury I always had fun. Just the people I guess. Now the city has changed it feel like when you get somewhere in K-town you left TN entirely. So okay I am running off on a tangent now and I will end up pissing people off and I must quiet while I am ahead. So sorry Russo I really wanted to come out and see ya last night. I took a nap to stay awake then 10:00 came and I just couldn't do it. Knox is weird to me anymore and I hate it makes me feel that way. I think I need to spend a day with the city and get to know her again. Yes I bond with cities. I walk around and get the vibe of the town and then I can enjoy it. When I went to NYC I came alive with a feeling I had never felt. I had to explore a little and feel it on the sidewalks, smell it in the air. I stood outside CBs and then strayed several blocks away before going back in. I guess what I am saying is I love cities and Knox and I just can't get along anymore ( Knox does not compare to any of the above cities in size ) I love the scruffiness of her, I love the age of her, but it has been awhile since we have bonded. Or maybe we have had our moment and now it is gone. Who knows I will try and make it out next weekend but we will see....