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So anyways I joined Netflix and finally update my movies. I picked like all kinds of cool movies like Shaft (the original), to Blazing Saddles, then of course your sci-fi and blood slashers. Even those ones that under normal circumstances you would be embarrassed to rent like Mean Girls. So okay Tina Fey wrote and she is in it and SHE IS HOT plus Lindsey Lohan is fun to look at to so why not. So I am walking a little better today. Highly paid professionals are telling me it is RSDS (Reflex Sympathetic Dystrophy Syndrome) This means when I was cut the pain never healed and in fact intensified cause extreme swelling in my foot and fucking up my ability to walk. So here's the scary part there is a slim slim chance I may never walk again, but I don't think this will happen. I managed to walk more on it today and I feel right now at this point it is at stage one which is low. But hey I am not a doctor right? They are keeping me pilled up on pain/nerve pills ( to lazy to look up the name) and I must admit the first day was cool but I am just not like this. I would not want to live like this in a dopey state ALL the time. Maybe a week or two at a time ( see Canadian post months ago ) but not all the time. I am a realist and have consider the facts and maybe I should retrain for another job. One inside and not as dangerous. However many many people are worse off then I am, and I am the type of person who will fight this just to spite this. However a funny story to this is when I first heard of this I referred to it as an immune disorder. In a way it is pain is telling your body not to use that part anymore. So my grandmother heard of this and the first thing that pops in her head, and I quote, " Is it AIDS?" (me) " No Grandma I can absolutly assure you it is not AIDS. I am positive on this one. In order to get a STD you must first have the S." Then I paused and cried inside. Damn it I need a date but who wants to hook up with a possible future cripple? I must sweeten the deal. You can sit in the handicap seat at the NIN show with me. Oh baby my foot may not work but the rest of me does............