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knox, actually an hour away from knox. However I will always call ATL home. :)

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Friday May 12, 2006

May 12, 2006
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So the new doctor in my HMO food chain seems nice. I am so tired of their protocol. At least she knows what RSD is, that is a plus. I still can not get over the shock of myself. I still can not believe it. The seizure has managed to control all of my movements and I do not see how people live their lives like this. I am not sure I can. Well yea I am sure I can but the not being able to drive anywhere is starting to wear thin. And fast. I still relive the moment. I felt it sneak up on me. I felt as if I was being chased. I felt it move into me, take hold of me, then throw me down. I moved and thrusted and violence out poured. To my angel I have threatened to kill if She ever touched me again. To my dangers, to my trust, to my imagination running wild. Turns against me at every move and all I wanted was just to love you. This is it. This is me. Falling down, I want you to have this. Publicity and paralyze all I ever am. Calming down and waking me up I am not me who am I. I was asked for my name and DOB and I recited them by heart, as if I was supposed to. I was asked to recall what happened and I do not know. I do not remember anything just the running. I ran from them as fast as I could. I ran from the shadows the imprints I want you to notice this. Did anyone else see them chasing me. I was running until I was captured. I was running until I could not run anymore. This is me. All I want. All I want Her to be. My angel watching over me. Go Away from me..........


Sent from the Industry the robot is fresh off the assembly line. He will do want you want him to. He will say what he is programed to say. He thinks think only what he is told to think. He worships the god of himself and retaliates the regime of denial. I want only the best for him. I want only the best from him. I have input him with thoughts of my own. I have sent him into the world to represent the appearance of my own. I want only the best for him. He is full of emotions and full of joy. I am so proud of my growing little boy. I have replicated the cell structure I have noticed the lie. I want only the best for him. Please don't let him die.



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