bigwhelturnsmal

Some things never change. Even at 30 I still feel as if I am in high school. What is it about elitist and clicks? I am as I was then that nerdy little boy in the corner that has now if a few friends and sits by himself. The only difference now is I am well medicated so it tends not to bother me as much. I think. This school is so stupid and they have these programs but only want a handful of people in them. They have these events and only want a chosen few to enjoy them. Sounds like high school all over again. I was the one in high school where if I knew then what I know now I would have went on a kill crazy rampage. At that time the penalty was a slap on the hand so by now I would be a free man. However turn the other cheek prevailed and as I turned it the other side was smitted as well. In any event there is an opening inside me and for some reason I can not fill it. It is a void of infinite space and it will never be filled.......