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I need a night of farewell debauchery. A night where I am not the designated driver or even the only driver. A night where I can make a public ass of myself and then go home ( or sleep somewhere else) I want to vomit on the dance floor and pass out on the couch with someone babysitting my sorry ass.
So I went and seen my friend Ben today. His fucking hair so so long now it makes me sick. I am on the way back down that road. I no longer care as much as I used to. It was a fad and now it has died. I do not want a boss I do not want a job. I want more from life then to pass into hollow death. But first a night of drunkenness and lustfullness. I miss living in a town where no one knew me. It is a fun little irony being me. School is going well I guess it just seems pointless anymore. So what? I am just going through the motions to achieve a notarized piece of paper full of shit. In any event the bus rolls on. I am not on as many pills as I used to be. My head was swarming full of evil and thoughts I never would ever put there. It was amazing. Have you ever had a bad acid trip and your mind purges faster then it can process. I have. It is not pleasant. It was like I was on a bad trip for hours and days on end. Some people never come back. Ask Sid.....