bigpunkmike

Time to rant

ok so I've been drinking and I am in the mood

for whatever reason when I am drunk I can still type, but I gotta focus, focus hard

I am mad for various reasons, number one, I am sick. Not sick like I have a cold, sick I have an illness that shuts down my organs at random and will kill me. Thats what I wake to every morning, wondering if today will be the final day. Don't get me wrong, it's happened, I've woken up to collapsed lungs and failed kidneys. Why life can be hell

Finally I found a gf who I love and who doesn't care that I'm sick. She evrything I've looked for and rules, I'd do anything for her and for me that's hard. Yet one thing always stands in our way...sex. I am a very open and affectionate person. Honestly I get basically no sex, I stay because I love her, I need to work things out, I can't give up, but it's wrecking me, I have so much to deal with right now and I honestly can't cope, I know that. I hardly sleep, I druink away my problems, I work two jobs and go to school full time just to get by. I have a bright future, but right now I suffer.

I am right fucvked...I'LL continuwe tomorrow