I figured i'd post this. This is the first page of the book I'm writing. Some will find it interesting some will find it boring. My life has been "unconventional" and so I'm writing a book explaining what has happened to me. I don't expect to make any money off of it, it's just something I want to do. I want my story published. Give me any feedback, good or bad.
Have you ever felt as though Death is stalking you; slowly creeping behind you with his hourglasswith the sands of time filtering slowly down until the end.
Welcome to my World
Everyday I wake wondering what to expect, what is next for me. It seems as though everything has happened and nothing should surprise me, but it does. My wonder usually leads to trying to consider what might happen tomorrow and next week and even a few years from now, mostly not pleasant thoughts. Through my short life I have struggled to achieve some sort of normalcy, to feel as though I was no different than the others surrounding me. I know this will never be true. My life will never be normal, Im not even sure if Ill ever be fully capable of being completely happy.
Confused Yet?
Although Im only 21, Ive experienced more of what life can throw at a person than most meet in their lifetime. This book highlights my story of struggling to grow up and find my way through basically a 12 year nightmare. But my focus is not necessarily on just the bad, my goal is to shows both sides but especially the good and the person which has emerged from everything. As the saying goes what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger, I am proof.
Its kind of ironic that today while sitting and writing in Chicago on my way to Washington for treatment, I noticed something at the ate across from me. Theres a party going on filled with young children all who are the sick. The gate says Florida, so I assume they are going to Disneyland. I just find it amazing to see all the looks of happiness upon the childrens faces because although many dont view it this way, for once, they are being normal. They are in a place where they are surrounded by others who are like them, a place where they wont be judged or stared at or viewed as oddities. Instead of heading off to a hospital for treatment, they are heading to a place filled with happiness. It might only be one day, but its one day where they dont have to deal with what has been thrown at them. They get to be a kid. I could go on and on about this, but I will stop because I have a whole book to explain my thoughts and feelings on all the issues. I still havent completely figured out why I am writing this, I think its because I feel I need to get everything off my chest, I really need to share all my knowledge viewed through my perspective, a young mans view, which is rarely seen in books. I hope youre intrigued, because I can guarantee youll enjoy and be able to identify with much of what I have to say and hopefully youll pick up on some other things too.
Have you ever felt as though Death is stalking you; slowly creeping behind you with his hourglasswith the sands of time filtering slowly down until the end.
Welcome to my World
Everyday I wake wondering what to expect, what is next for me. It seems as though everything has happened and nothing should surprise me, but it does. My wonder usually leads to trying to consider what might happen tomorrow and next week and even a few years from now, mostly not pleasant thoughts. Through my short life I have struggled to achieve some sort of normalcy, to feel as though I was no different than the others surrounding me. I know this will never be true. My life will never be normal, Im not even sure if Ill ever be fully capable of being completely happy.
Confused Yet?
Although Im only 21, Ive experienced more of what life can throw at a person than most meet in their lifetime. This book highlights my story of struggling to grow up and find my way through basically a 12 year nightmare. But my focus is not necessarily on just the bad, my goal is to shows both sides but especially the good and the person which has emerged from everything. As the saying goes what doesnt kill you, makes you stronger, I am proof.
Its kind of ironic that today while sitting and writing in Chicago on my way to Washington for treatment, I noticed something at the ate across from me. Theres a party going on filled with young children all who are the sick. The gate says Florida, so I assume they are going to Disneyland. I just find it amazing to see all the looks of happiness upon the childrens faces because although many dont view it this way, for once, they are being normal. They are in a place where they are surrounded by others who are like them, a place where they wont be judged or stared at or viewed as oddities. Instead of heading off to a hospital for treatment, they are heading to a place filled with happiness. It might only be one day, but its one day where they dont have to deal with what has been thrown at them. They get to be a kid. I could go on and on about this, but I will stop because I have a whole book to explain my thoughts and feelings on all the issues. I still havent completely figured out why I am writing this, I think its because I feel I need to get everything off my chest, I really need to share all my knowledge viewed through my perspective, a young mans view, which is rarely seen in books. I hope youre intrigued, because I can guarantee youll enjoy and be able to identify with much of what I have to say and hopefully youll pick up on some other things too.
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quinne:
im so intrigued
demigauge:
gah...to long of a post..i'll read it later...