bigpoppa99

I have no motivation anymore. Not with photography or my diet and weight loss. I just want to come home from work turn on the ac and either watch movies or play video games.

Today though I kicked myself in the ass and decided that I have to do this. I started the diet. Eating oatmeal for breakfast a fruit for a snack a lean sandwich and a sensible dinner. Im also back to trying to do the P90x. Right now I am just doing the warm ups and stretches. I need to drop about 20 pounds before I can actually start the program. I also started to do my lunch time walk around campus. That was something I did alot last year. I didnt do it at all this year.

I think maybe the weight gain I got after my surgery is also stopping me from dating. It may just be a self confidence issue I am having right now. I just don't feel good about myself. I dont like the way I look in the mirror now.

Its going to be tough. All the soda is gone have to make adjustment when little poppa is over but I think I can do it. I ganed 20 pounds since October. I want to lose that and 10 more by the end of the summer.

I did get a job offer to take some portraits of a friend. She wanted to pay for them but I told her not to worry about it. Just tell your friends who did it and pass my name around. It helps that her cousin is a VP with court tv or what ever they changed the name to it. I just have to rent some lenses and I was going to do that anyway.