bigpoppa99

I don't like myself right now.

Edit to add:

I'm almost done with being the nice guy.

I want to be the obnoxious jerk that will tell you that your smile reminds him of bugs bunny.

Sure he will be entertaining to you for 10 minutes or so.

i just dont know maybe I'm just too fucking old

What has being nice gotten me?

Sure I have lots of friends and I love em to death. I also have a failed marriage meh that I can do with out.

I want to be in the middle of the action and not sit on the sidelines watching it go by.

And for the life of me I can not be that person. I cant even be an asshole even if I tried. My soon to be ex wife left mefor someone else popped out his kid and even has my son calling the guy papi. But guess what? I dont hate her for it. I hold my tounge and do everything for the best interest of lil poppa.

If I cant be the jerk, I want to be able to have the courage to speak whats on my mind.