bigman316

so other than just wanting to post a new blog i don't think i have that much to write about. i have been feeling okay this past week, so that is a plus. i endured a very frustrating trip to philadelphia over the weekend, that included alot of poor planning and not enough communication between parties involved. work last night was busy, one of our...
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so today was easter.......for alot of people a very meaningful religous holiday. today was also one of my cousin's birthday. soooooooooo....that meant i got to travel forty-five minutes over the hills and thru the woods to my cousin's house, for the purpose of spending "quality time" with my family. my cousins are really the only immediate family i have left. both of my parents have...
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hello everybody!!!!! i really have not been on here much in the past couple of weeks. i have been having some health "issues" that have really limited my ability to do much of anything. (except spend long periods of a day in my very dark room) i have promised myself that this weekend....which for me is sunday and monday...i need to go thru a bunch...
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looking out my window all i see is dark and grey. some people say it is a miserable way to
start a new day. i guess it is because the clouds are dark, the rain is wet, the mood is
depressed, as sad as things can get.
i embrace the dark, i love the rain, just because it saddens your mood, doesn't mean it
doesn't...
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well here it is sunday afternoon...the nice weather people are calling for a whole bunch of snow. unfortunately, i have yet to see one darn snow flake. which really does upset me, because i totally love it when it snows. everything just looks so white, and clean and fresh.....but the real reason is that snow always reminds me of home in south dakota. i miss...
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i have to share this; because i know i often don't post alot of happy stuff. i had the best freakin' weekend ever!!!!! friday night i saw one of my favorite bands slipknot in concert. it was incredible!!!! i have been a fan of the band since day one, but oddly enough this was the first time i was able to see them in concert....
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so a little bit of what is what in the land of the big man.....and i promise this post is not full of depressing stuff. yesterday i met with my new "interim" therapist, while my regular person takes time off to be a mommy for the second time. i was very, very nervous, but my session went well, and i am hopeful that her and...
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how come it is that the only time i update my blog is when i am feeling bad???? it is not my intention to depress people, or make others feel bad also. but sometimes i just need to use this space to attempt to get something that resembles feelings out....... lately it seems i am in the habit of getting advice from people who simply...
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so i thought i would post a quick update....
i have been at home for the past week, before that i was in the hospital for five days. i suffer from severe depression, and sometimes life just throws more at me than i can handle, and well that is where i end up. think of it along the lines of your car breaks down...car breaks...
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so i was thinking today.....here we are christmas is done, people are now making their plans for new year's eve. out with one year, in with a whole new year. what will the new year hold for me?? don't know...maybe love, maybe money, maybe a new job, maybe new friends, maybe become better friends with people i have recently met. i guess we will have...
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